So this week has been awesome! First it started off with a dead Monday. We were slow and I was able to get a lot of stuff done at work that I normally just can't seem to find time for. Tuesday I had a great Valentine's day. Hubby surprised me at work for lunch with a couple of candles and a red table clothe and a single red rose. Then after work I went to a meeting for school and found out I am only 2 classes away from my associates degree!! Very awesome! I will get it 3 days before we move to California. Wednesday I got a small raise (just in time to quit lol). I also as of yesterday was down 4 lbs from Sunday morning! So awesome week up till that point. (and still is really)
Today I turned into an emotional wreck! I was self consous because I decided it would be a good idea to step on the scale this morning after a p90x work out last night and was 2 lbs up. (duh of course the scale is up) Also because I just felt fat even though I have been working out a lot and losing a little at a time. Then I got unnecessarily jealous at my husband for a completely stupid reason that is so stupid I am not going to even say because I fell foolish about it now. Also I consumed 8 cookies today at work which set me way over my caloric intake. Basically my hormonal emotional state was sent down hill because I have been so overly hard on how I look and just feel ugly. I have been feeling like I have failed myself by not being 100lbs down already. Wow that was much harder to admit then I thought it would be. I have been judging my progress off of other people and I really need to stop doing that. Also all the inspiring bandsters out there that are in single digit pants make me feel like I will never get there. I have to find my mojo again. I would love to lose that 12 more pounds before we get pregnant again.
I just keep telling myself how blessed I am though to have this wonderful week and to be 88lbs down with my wonderful band and be so close to my associates degree.
You were having such a great week, don't let today's emotional upsets get to you. Just keep thinking about the lovely rose your husband gave you on tuesday :o)
ReplyDeleteI completely understand how you're feeling (as evidenced in my last blog post) but we'll get through it. You just have to keep remembering to tell yourself how far you've come, how hard you've worked and that you're doing great!
ReplyDeleteYou are doing awesome! Keep up the hard work and don't let the hubby's progression stop you or make you jealous. My husband is much smaller than me and it might be that he always will be. You are a very tall and absolutely beautiful. Men loose weight easier than we do and for that I could punch them all in the face LOL. You are under a lot of stress so take one day at a time. Keep doing the PX90 and yes you are going to have bad days but take that bad day and make the next one a great one! good luck! HUGS!
ReplyDeleteyou are doing amazing, 88 pounds is a super number! keep up the work, I am being banded on Feb 24th, can't wait to shop at regular stores, best of luck
ReplyDelete88 lbs lost is an amazing accomplishment and something for you to be SO proud of. Never base your sucesses on comparisons to others. You are in inspiration to many, so embrace your successes! :)
ReplyDeleteDAAAAAAAAAAng! Awesome work!
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