Liquid Diet

All I have to say about this liquid diet thing is blah. All I really want to do is bite into a nice big hot turkey and gravy sandwich! Hence why I need this surgery in the first place lol. Although today is day 4 and I stepped on the scale this morning at 10lbs down from my Thursday morning! Crazy right? Although I know the moment I eat real food again it will all come back. Good thing that's not going to be for like a month :) 9 days till surgery. I can't say the start of my new life any more because i consider Nov. 26th 2010 that day. It's all gotta be downhill from here :)

New Years Goal

I was read a blog by a bandster who talks about setting goals. I think my first goal I'm going to set for myself with be for New Years. I want to be down to 320lbs by the new year. A very doable goal I believe since I am starting my liquid diet on the 26th of Nov. Do you have any goals for the New Year? What are they?

20 Day Count Down!

As of today we are 20 days pre-surgery! YaY!! I am so excited though and impatient I want it to be here already! The biggest problem I am having right now is that I'm not really telling anyone in the family. So being invited places for the holidays makes it hard, because I will pro bally still be on a soft food diet. Also I don't want to have this surgery and then dive right back into horrible food choices. So far though this is my only short term issue. For long term I have other issues to worry over, because we are a military family. I will not have the same doc for my fills and follow ups. but that is a simple worry with a solution almost figured out :)

Today make it 26 days till my surgery. Family and friends keep asking me if I am nervous. All I can say is no I'm excited! Plus it's true. I'm sure the day of surgery I will be nervous if not really anxious, but overall I just can't wait to get rid of this black cloud hanging over my life.

Yesterday was veterans day. I was in the Navy for a couple of years and ended up getting out because I weighed to much. I spent allot of time yesterday reflecting on how far I came from my first veterans day being in the Navy to now. I can see the path to how I got here and am happy to have come this far and yet morn the road I had to travel to be here. I lost a few great friends to the war and gained a wonderful man in the process. I am still part of the military community as a Navy wife and I will follow my hubby anywhere because he has done so much for me. He is truly my hero and has saved me in every way I possible. To all of you out there who are serving and have served. Thank you from one veteran to another.

Tight Pants and Fear...

I am so focused sometimes on getting the procedure done and over with, that I forget to take a step back to look forward to just how my life will change. I am on the lap band site and watching some of there videos. A woman in one of the videos was talking about how much more she loves food after having her surgery because she doesn't fear eating any more. I started to cry. Food has literally taken over my life. Weather it be trying to loose weight to being scared my pants wont fit and I don't want that fear any more. It really hit me a minute ago that the control food has on me will be gone. I will be in control again. It's such a freeing feeling. I have been promising my husband for a couple years now that I will lose weight and go to Six Flags with him, because I can't fit in the rides right now. I finally will get to keep that promise...I just hope I don't cry from joy when I get to lower the bar over my lap on the first roller coaster. I am so excited!!! Yep two post in one day, but I really wanted to share that with ya'll :)

It's Almost Time!

Wow this was a long absence on my part. I have lots of updates for you. First update is the newest member of our family...He weighs 2lbs and is called Mr. Monster. He is only still when he's sleeping. A good pick on the name in my book :)

The next news is...I GOT MY SURGERY DATE!!!! I am jumping for joy! The countdown has started. 28days to go right now. I have some more stuff to accomplish before hand but I go in for surgery for my lap band on December 8th at 8 o'clock in the morning. I have to be at the hospital at 6 a.m. so it will be an early morning for myself and the hubby. Leading up to the surgery I have to get more blood work done, a full physical and health history and meet with the nutritionist again (she is going to scold me, I gained a couple of pounds :(. From Halloween to Christmas who doesn't gain a couple of pounds though? Oh well, I wont be able to eat much for Christmas so my New Years resolution comes early this year. I have set up to start with a personal trainer in January after I give myself time to heal. I am mostly looking forward to being full for a change. Its a whole new outlook on life that I am so excited about as well. I will let you know how the pre-op stuff goes and of course update you on the surgery after the fact. Until next time, and I promise it wont be almost a month this time. : )