Coasters, Cookies, and Pounds

About four months ago when I got my band I don't think I would have believed you if you told me I would be down 56.8lbs by the beginning on April. I would have been ok, that's a perfect world. But here I am! I am 2.8lbs away from my May 7th 60lb goal. I am so happy I made the choice to get my band. I am so happy I am changing my life! 

I made almond cinnamon sugar cookies this weekend and cinnamon apple crumble bread as well. I am sending half of the products to work with the hubs and I am taking half to my work. Over the weekend I had about four cookies, but I worked it into the days. I had nothing but a taste of the bread to make sure it came out ok. Very yummy by the way! I love to bake and cook and knowing that I have a new view of food and the world around me I can know I will be fine.

I will admit that I have not worked out in 2 weeks. Its hard to wrap my head around starting to work out again until I am down a couple more pounds. I also feel great about working out but horrible about the numbers going up on the scale. I know I know it will go down after the first week. I think I am so scarred to see that number go up that I am going to just fast walk around our neighborhood. That is about 2 miles. It will be good for the dog too. I'm justifying this all in my head so I know what your all thinking. Feel free to share your opinion.

This is going to be a the first of a few excited ramblings on six flags. We are buying season passes this year because I will finally be able to fit into the coasters again!! I am so freaking excited about that! Roller coasters have always been so fun for me! Then I couldn't fit into them for a couple years, it was embarrassing and demoralizing. I had lost about 40lbs at one part and almost fit but not quite. Now I know I will fit!!! So OMG I am thrilled for six flags this year!!!

Also I had a nice little NSV on Wednesday last week that I didn't share with you and Ronnie pointed that out. I was in my psychology class looking around and realized I was not the biggest person in there! I know that's kinda shallow to think but that realization felt awesome! I wish I could share my success with the people in my class that are heavy. I know I have a long way to go but I am starting to feel smaller.

Happy Monday everyone!

*HUGS*

Holy Post Batman

I am sittin pretty in the 200's!! I am down to 295.6 as of this morning! Not to shabby from 300 last weekend. I am ssooo happy the scale is moving again.This puts me 5.4lbs away from my anniversary goal. I have till May 7th to lose that so I think I am doing pretty well on that goal right now. I am trying to be down to 280lbs before the end of June when we go to Oregon to see his family. That might be a long stretch but if I keep up what I'm doing then I think I will be fine.

I think I am starting to develop a normal relationship with food. Sunday we went to panera for breakfast (at about 1100) I got a spinach and bacon souffle. My hubby had a couple of bites and I ate the rest. I didn't feel bad about it and I didn't go crazy the rest the day either. It was relatively small though to. Band sized :) I went on with my day and drank plenty of water and had a low cal pita pizza for lunch and some yummy chicken for dinner. I felt good about my eating. Even if I did have some gummy bears too. It was all appropriately sized and healthy. I am starting to understand that no foods are truly bad foods. Just the consumption behind them. I still want to eat the "bad" foods but as long as I keep them in check I'm good. I didn't think I would be at this point of understanding so soon after surgery. I know I will still struggle and have off weeks, but hey I'm only human.

I didn't work out last week. I know bad right? Well I truly don't know any more. I spent the majority of March working my butt off at the gym and gained 2-3lbs I stopped last week to get my schedule under control and lost almost 4lbs! Some things are beyond my understanding and this is one of those things. Also I have noticed I have to work out. Before surgery I had problems with muscle pain so bad I was medicating 3-4 times a day. It was in the back of my legs up to the bottom of my butt. I noticed as the weight came off the pain went away. It turns out that the exercise was the reason I was not having pain anymore. After this week of not working out I had to take medication yesterday to help with the pain in my legs. Did anyone else get to that point? Were your muscles were so under used they physically hurt? I think the damage left over from being so overweight is going to cause issue with that for a while. I am working out today after I see my surgeon. I am very much looking forward to it.

This is turning into a long post so I will wrap it up soon.

I have a fill appointment today I don't think I'm going to ask for to much. maybe a half CC. I think I am almost at my sweet spot. I don't want to over do it and have to have to much taken out.

Until next time my dears.

*HUGS*

A Fill Is In Order

Yesterday we went to Texas De Brazil and it wasn't worth it. I had a good time and the food was amazing but the overall experience wasn't worth it to me any more. I was able to eat way to much. I don't know were Phylis (my band) went for the night. Then afterword I felt like crap cause I was so overfull that I wanted to puke! I would say a fill is defiantly in order. Thankfully it was mostly protein. Carbs is what really kills me but holy crap I still cant believe I ate that much. I don't think I have consumed that much in one sitting since pre-band. I have an appointment in 1 week to get a fill. I am looking forward to it.

I am going to try my hardest not to weight myself again till next Saturday morning and see how this week goes. One I don't want to see how bad last night went and 2 I just need to give the scale a break. Stepping on it everyday isn't good for anyone.

Well it's Monday again and I have to head off to work. Hope you all have a great day!
*HUGS*