YaY It's Monday Again

Good morning blogger. It's Monday again. The worst day of the week to wake up early :(

You all know about my interview on Friday...I think it went very well! I will know more today. So finger crossed. Right now I get up at 0500 every morning for work and I am working by 0615. This job I wouldn't even have to wake up till 7!!! can you believe that! I will have to push some other stuff around if I get this job, but who cares it can be done. I would be able to get up at 0600 to work out.  and not have to leave for work until 0815! How awesome is that! I wouldn't have to take much of a pay cut. Also where I work now I probably put in a good 3 hrs extra a week and don't get paid because its not allotted. I know that doesn't seem like much but that's around $50 I'm losing a week in my time. It would fantastic to get this job. I actually scheduled an appointment for 0700 for myself later in the month knowing that it might not interfere with work. Brilliant! And if I'm still here and it does then who cars. I can't stand this place.

It  was warm this weekend finally! I took the dog for a walk and the poor guy didn't make it very far. I had to pick him up for a little ways. I know he is pathetic. We had some friends over for a barbeque last night. We made fuit salad, regular salad, corn on the cob(grilled), burgers, hot dogs and the hubby had chicken. I have finally conseded to the fact that I can't eat burgers anymore. They just don't like to go through the nice way. I took 2 bites last night and had to give the rest to the hubby. He was happy about it though. I ate a hotdog with some corn and fruit instead. It's sad because he make the best burgers too.

I still do not have a working scale. The one we have you have to do this little trick to get it to work right and at 5 am I am not in the mood to mess with it. If I can't step on it and it works then its not worth my time when I can barely finction that early. I think the hubs is going to order this fancy scale that records BMI too with our rewards points. So morale of the story I don't have a weight up date yet.

Well anyway have a great Monday everyone.

*HUGS*

A Little Late to The Game

But here is my after work out "glow"

I think I look more like a lobster bake then glowy. But hey it feels good!

Sorry about the bra straps, Totally forgot about that. Like my shower set up in the background?

Also I have discovered what I think is the best invention since toilet paper. Its called Buddy Fruit and it comes in a pouch!



This has been my pre-breakfast the last week or so to hold me over till my protein shake. The kind you are looking at is apple banana. It has a consistency of a smooth apple sauce. There is no sugar added in any of the flavors and its a full serving of fruit. Plus its resealable! Maybe it's the pouch but I love these things. You can get them at walmart and for the military peeps out there I grabbed mine from the commissary for 89 cents a piece. A little on the high side but for me worth it.

The scale has systematically moved back up with my last 2 days of workouts. I just don't get it and I'm not going to try to understand it. I am just going to know that I feel great when I workout and like crap when I don't. (still in the 200's though!!!)

I hope you all have a wonderfully fabulous day!

*HUGS*

Holy Post Batman

I am sittin pretty in the 200's!! I am down to 295.6 as of this morning! Not to shabby from 300 last weekend. I am ssooo happy the scale is moving again.This puts me 5.4lbs away from my anniversary goal. I have till May 7th to lose that so I think I am doing pretty well on that goal right now. I am trying to be down to 280lbs before the end of June when we go to Oregon to see his family. That might be a long stretch but if I keep up what I'm doing then I think I will be fine.

I think I am starting to develop a normal relationship with food. Sunday we went to panera for breakfast (at about 1100) I got a spinach and bacon souffle. My hubby had a couple of bites and I ate the rest. I didn't feel bad about it and I didn't go crazy the rest the day either. It was relatively small though to. Band sized :) I went on with my day and drank plenty of water and had a low cal pita pizza for lunch and some yummy chicken for dinner. I felt good about my eating. Even if I did have some gummy bears too. It was all appropriately sized and healthy. I am starting to understand that no foods are truly bad foods. Just the consumption behind them. I still want to eat the "bad" foods but as long as I keep them in check I'm good. I didn't think I would be at this point of understanding so soon after surgery. I know I will still struggle and have off weeks, but hey I'm only human.

I didn't work out last week. I know bad right? Well I truly don't know any more. I spent the majority of March working my butt off at the gym and gained 2-3lbs I stopped last week to get my schedule under control and lost almost 4lbs! Some things are beyond my understanding and this is one of those things. Also I have noticed I have to work out. Before surgery I had problems with muscle pain so bad I was medicating 3-4 times a day. It was in the back of my legs up to the bottom of my butt. I noticed as the weight came off the pain went away. It turns out that the exercise was the reason I was not having pain anymore. After this week of not working out I had to take medication yesterday to help with the pain in my legs. Did anyone else get to that point? Were your muscles were so under used they physically hurt? I think the damage left over from being so overweight is going to cause issue with that for a while. I am working out today after I see my surgeon. I am very much looking forward to it.

This is turning into a long post so I will wrap it up soon.

I have a fill appointment today I don't think I'm going to ask for to much. maybe a half CC. I think I am almost at my sweet spot. I don't want to over do it and have to have to much taken out.

Until next time my dears.

*HUGS*

Green From Head To Toe

This morning the scale has gone up from 301.8 to 302.8. Frustrated is not even close to the correct word for it. I'm going to chuck that scale out the window.

I went jogging last night with the hubby. I was supposed to go to the gym to work with my trainer but it got up to 63 degrees here and I just couldn't pass up a chance to be outside! I jogged a 2.2mile course. I will admit I did walk a tiny bit but most of it was a really slow jog.

Yesterday I ate:

200cal protein shake
60cal sugar free pudding
130cal cheese sticks
50cals turkey lunch meat
140cal sesame sticks
140cal chobani
50cal cheese stick
155cals turkey breast
15cals mushrooms
60cals bread crumbs
50cals cheese stick
3 liters of water
5cups green tea
=1050cals

I know I am lacking in veggies so I am fixing that. This has been about what I have eaten the last couple of days so I don't know what to expect out of this body anymore. I do know that I am losing inches though because a shirt that I have from a couple of years ago fit me around the chest and it never fit comfortably there before. Plus hubby like the shirt too. The scale is just the one really getting to me still.

At work I feel like a baby sitter because the only other competent person is out this week so I have to do everything so it gets done right. I run around all day and barely get a lunch at all. I eat while working on patient records. I cant wait till my right hand man is back because I am sick of doing the work of 3 people. Plus side to this though is I barely broke a sweat doing it. I got a little warm but if I was on my feet all day 50lbs ago I would be so sweaty I would have to put more deodorant on.

Overall a couple NSV's to get me through the day. If its nice outsides again I think we are going to jog again today. I hope you all have a great Thursday and St. Pattys day! don't drink to much of that green beer :)

*HUGS*

Peeps Against the World!!

I am not even close to were I will be some day but today I feel strong! I feel like I have it all together. Ok, it might just be the adrenaline and endorphins talking from my workout an hour ago, but I feel strong. When I go to the gym and push myself farther then I have in a long time it gives me hope. When I get 826 calories burned in 45 mins I feel that I will not fail. When I eat right all day then have a great dinner, I feel like I can fight this battle forever.

...again it could just be the endorphins.

When I do what I am supposed to do in my head I can take on the world and bake a cake at the same time. ( a low fat sugar free cake of course )

I don't know were this is all going except that I feel good.

I saw today that over 80lbs was lost in the first week of the suddenly spring challenge...Wow! I am so proud of everyone! Careful though I am going to catch up now that I am back in full swing.

School starts next week so I am going to have to really push myself not to slack on my eating and time at the gym. I will have class on T/Th from 5-7:30pm and W from 5-10pm (not looking forward to those days. I am taking a math and psychology course. There are 8 week classes. Pray for me everyone I am going to need all the help I can get! I am thinking I will have to move my workout schedule to as follows: Mondays and Fridays at 3:30pm, Tuesdays and Thursdays at 8pm and then Saturday whenever I make it out of bed. In between there I will have to work and do homework as well. Not sure how this will all work out yet but I am going to try. Also I have to prepare all my meals the day before so I am eating good for me food and staying within my calories. I don't know how all you guys with kids do this! Your all modern day super women.

I haven't been commenting to much on peoples blogs lately and I feel like I am losing touch with my peeps! ( anyone else love those marshmallowy sugar coated birds as much as I do?)
I will do my best to stay in touch with everyone over the next couple of weeks. Please bare with me. I love you all like long lost family!!!

Well ta ta for now.
*HUGS*

Green Tea And The Easy Way Out

I love tea. I used to be addicted to coffee for a couple of years. At one point I was up to 4 Venti size Starbucks coffees a day with 4 espresso shots in each one. Talk about a waist of money! I would spend $20 plus a day just on coffee.

I was brought up to drink tea. So once I weened myself off the coffee I went back to drinking tea. Hot Chi tea, black iced tea, gogi berry green tea, honey vanilla chamomile. Here is my tea stock right now. Its only 9 boxes.

My love is now strictly with tea. Add a little squeeze of honey and you have a perfect cup of tea. I recently heard that green tea is great for weight loss. I did a little reading and found some facts to back up the claim. More info here So I think I will try to drink more of my green tea then. I have a citrus green tea and a gogi pomegranate green tea. Very tasty. I did read for any benefit you nee to drink 3-5 cups a day. This should be a tasty experiment. :)

I debated weather or not to post today. This from being just disgusted with my progress, but that would have been the easy way out. And lots of times you will see a blog go silent because the person behind it doesn't want to talk about there lack of progress. Then they come back and say that exact thing. So here I am skipping a step. I am not happy with my progress. I saw that 299 and kinda went nuts I think. (as nuts as you can get with a band) I decided to let my gym anxiety get the best of my and found a reason not to go more then twice last week. I thought it was a good idea to eat 3 dunkin doughnut muffins in one day. I also thought it was a good idea to eat dessert after having a heavy calorie ridden meal. I stopped preparing my meals for the next day. I let myself think it was ok because "I would have eaten a ton more pre-band". I am getting back on track tomorrow. I don't want to be one of those people that is always getting back on track. If I had known how hard this would have been before getting banded I don't know if I would have done it. I am glad that I didn't know though because now I am here with 1/3 of my extra weight gone. It scares me to death that I will fail and end up back were I was. I am so sick of failing. It seems to be all I can see in myself lately.

That brings me to another topic. (bare with me this is getting to be a lengthy post) My husband told me he has noticed that the only thing I am happy about with myself lately is my weight loss. I have a huge lack of self esteem. I have always had issues with low self esteem and that is one of the things I went over with my therapist last year. My issues with self esteem started very young. I have always been really tall, so that started it. Then I got heavy and was always on a diet imposed on me by others. My weight has always been an issue for many parts of my family and they all put their 2 cents in about it.

anyway this is leading to the fact that he said being proud of myself doesn't have to come from a huge achievement. When I choose a rice cake over chocolate or carrots over french fries. He in his own way told me how proud of me he was and that I should give myself more credit. I am going to try and live up to the woman he sees in me. He has always made me be a better person just by being with me. So back to the self improvement drawing boards and build that self esteem.

Also we bought a new table this weekend after Thursdays kitty kung fu incident. Here is what we got. It's a nice counter height for my tallness.

I hope you all have a great day :)
*HUGS*

Crouching Kitty, Hidden Chocolate

I finally went to the gym again yesterday! It felt so good! I burnt 786 cals on the treadmill. and I'm not sure how much I did on the row machine, but I did 500meters for a cool down. My left foot thankfully adapts to pressure by the end of the day so I could do what I wanted. I got to take my time and just go at my own pace. Again though that dread snuck up on me on the way to the gym. I also got so tired that I had to fight every bone in my body not to fall asleep while I was driving!. I even had to pump myself up sitting in the car in the parking lot to walk in the front door. It was nice to see other heavier ladies there. Even if only in the locker room  : /

After the gym I came home and was cleaning up some stuff in the kitchen. I heard this super loud crash! I turned around and somehow my 4lb cat knocked over and shattered my glass top dinning table!! How the hell does that happen! So I spent about 40 minutes cleaning that all up and have to go shopping for a new table this weekend. Overall I'm not to heartbroken about it because I get a new table but cleaning up all that glass was a nightmare.

Also yesterday my husband got a pretty nice award from his command (work) and I got to go to that. I have never had the chance to go for an award ceremony of his before in the almost 6yrs we have been together. It was really awesome! I was able to get pictures and be all proud of him. Then got thanked for coming by his commanding officer (that's always awkward for me.) He was awarded another ribbon as well during the ceremony. He was given a NAM (navy achievement medal). This brings him up to 2. He is such a good sailor! To kinda celebrate because a friend of ours that he works with got an award to we all went to red lobster. I got a cup of lobster bisque soup and a half pound of crab legs (underwhelming btw, it turned out to be maybe 1/4 cup of meat). I also had 2 biscuits and half of a chocolate lava cookie with ice cream. The cookie had a hidden giant melt of chocolate on the inside! Holy mother of god it was nirvana on a plate. I think I might need another fill. It made me glad I worked out. I'm so glad I don't eat like that all the time. I would be 350lbs again.

It was a good day though and I am looking forward to furniture shopping this weekend. So thank you kitty! (the cats name the broke the table is Mr. Monster...appropriate?)

So have I hope everyone has a great weekend and while I am arguing with my husband about which table to get I will be thinking of you all and wishing I was here.

*HUGS*



My poor broken table :(



Anxiety Foot

I wanted to expand on my post earlier now that I have more time tonight. I would like to know if any of you ever get this way.

Sometimes the thought of going to workout makes me so nervous that I just want to run back home and hide under the covers. Never before have I ever gotten this nervous about working out. I don't know if its because I don't want to go work out or its because I think people are watching me. I just don't know. I hate getting so much anxiety over such a simple thing as going to work out. Once I get going I don't care about anything except what I'm doing and I know once I get to it I am glad to be doing it. I don't understand where the feelings are coming from. I used to have issues with crowds. I would get an anxiety attack and have to leave the area and allot of the time leave and go home. So these feelings are not new but the context is. I would really like to get to the bottom of it.

Also I am starting to doubt myself. I am self sabotaging. I do well at work and when I'm with the hubby, then I sneak food. I can't eat near as much as I could pre-band (thankfully) but the effect is still the same. Shame and self hatred, along with having so much food in me that I fell sick. I think as the weight comes off issues that I have subconsciously are coming to the forefront even if I can't recognize them yet. Old issues that have bit me in the butt in the past that I have just buried and not delt with. Thankfully with all the sabotage I have not gained, but I have not lost anymore either. I am hovering between 302 and 299. I love seeing that 2 and to keep it I think I am going to have to go back to therapy to deal with my issues. That in and of itself is a scary anxiety filled decision. I have done it before and would recommend it to anyone thinking about going. It has helped me a ton in the past and I am hoping it will help me a ton in the future.

I did not end up going to the gym today. I had an appointment that I totally forgot about. This might gross some people out. Warning given. I have a good handful of warts on the bottom of my left foot. They are getting to the point that they hurt to walk on. I went to see the doctor today to get them scrapped. I don't how many of you have ever had a wart scrapped but holy mother of golf balls it hurts. It took about 10 minutes and most of the time I head my head back and my eyes shut trying to ignore the pain as this guy took a scalpel to my foot to take skin off. After a few silent tear were shed I went limping out of the office and not able to put pressure on the toes or ball of my foot. I was not able to work out today. After the day I had at work today I really needed to workout. This whole thing sucked that thought out of my head real quick. Hopefully my foot will be in better shape tomorrow.
OK have a good night everyone and thanks for listening to my rambling.
*HUGS*

If It Wasn't For Chris...

I would have never gone to the gym last night. Just like I haven't gone to the gym in just about a week. Chris is my personal trainer and if I wasn't paying his ass extra and I could've cancelled the same day I wouldn't have gone to the gym lst night. But I did go, and I am so glad I did. After that week off from the gym and being sick I was really working up a good amount of anxiety about going back to the gym. I told you I started running with my husband and we go to a different gym on base were we live. Every time we go to run I get so nervous about it before hand. I have even told him and I can't explain why I just do. But this whole little explanation was to tell you all I am so glad that I went last night because now I want to go again tonight. I just had to get back into it. Especially because today is one of those crap days that equals crap food. ( I am not liking my job today)

I just wanted to say that I didn't get to far around blog land today but I will try to say my 2 cents after I work out tonight. Love you guys

*HUGS*

Yee-haw

Happy Monday everybody. I had a nice weekend of recovery and monkey business. We went out to eat twice and I weighed in this morning at 300.0. So not to bad of a gain. I am going to start back at the gym today after being sick last week. I know it's not going to feel the greatest after taking such a long break from working out. Also this weekend I was noticing just how much of a difference 50lbs has made.

Also as I am looking around blog land this morning I am noticing that the spring challenge is starting and I don't have a picture to put up. I guess I will have to put mine up tonight. Time has just flown by. I didn't realise it was that time already. lol

What does 50lbs mean to me:

-sitting in a theater with my legs up, because its comfortable and i fit.

-not being scared to sit in a chair because it's to small

-being able to workout 5 days a week

-loosing 2 pant sizes.

-sitting on the edge of the bathtub with my feet up.

-more confidence

-less arguing with my husband

-more walks with the dog

-shoes fit better!

- not sweating my butt off when I have to run around at work

-I sleep better

-My husband says I snore a ton less

-I got the courage up to dye my hair again

-almost no heartburn, was taking prilosec every day

-my knees don't hurt anymore, unless I don't workout (weird right)

last but not least (feel free to think dirty)

-RIDE 'EM COWBOY! yep went there :)

Checking In :)

I want to thank all you wonderful ladies for your comments yesterday. I would never have gotten this far without your support and friendship. I love you all! I can't wait to give you all a huge hug at BOOBS this year.

This morning nothing is really going on. I am sitting at work being bad already cause I am munching on a doughnut. I will factor it into my day of calories. Damn co-workers and there generosity. : P I do just want to curl back up and go to bed. I am still fighting this URI so I am just drained. The first thought I had when the alarm went off this morning was thank god I get to sleep in tomorrow.

I have not worked out once since Saturday. I feel horrible for slacking on it, but like my husband pointed out I will get right back to working out next week. Well as soon as I start feeling better. Like previously stated I am just looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. lol

I have a funny little side story. At least I found it funny. We were laying in bed last night and cuddling, when hubby says "I can feel your ribs". I was thinking oh very cool. A noticeable sign that I have lost a good amount of weight. I didn't say anything though. He leans over and proceed to bite the end of my rib cage to prove he can feel them. "See, I can feel your ribs". Now what kind of man shows there wife they are losing weight by biting there rib cage to prove they can feel it. All I could do was laugh at him. That man sure does make me smile.

Until next time.

*HUGS*

Blah Morning

I am sick. Sore throat and body aches. I have to wait till about 0830 to call and get an appointment to be seen. The advice line nurse that I talked to this morning said she would put in the computer that I needed to be seen today, My throat has been bothering me since Friday and I had just put it off till today. I have a hunch that it is just post nasal drip, but nothing I have been taking is doing much about it. I woke up a couple of times last night from the pain. It is starting to affect my band. This morning I figured I would try to get some left over pasta in so I wouldn't be hungry for a while. I took one bite and almost BP'd instantly. I was in the kitchen sliming into the sink for about 5mins. Not good. I made myself a quick protein shake and went about my business. It has yet to be consumed because the sliming and almost PBing didn't do my throat any favors.

Any who I am still working today so I will be traveling around blog land when I get a chance.  

The scale was not kind to me this morning. It had a 2lb gain. It makes seance though since I have been working out so much especially this weekend. Probably by the end of the week I will start seeing some more loss. I hope everyone had a great weekend

*HUGS*

Simple Saturday

I really don't know what to post today, so here are some random thoughts.

I love working out now. My normal Saturday before consisted of sleeping and laying about the house watching TV all day. I worked out this morning though and I feel fabulous! All the stuff they say about more energy, sleeping better and feeling better over all is true. I thought that working out would make it the opposite but nope, it's true! I did 30mins on the treadmill, 1500 meters on the row machine, 50 squat lifts with a 20lb barbell and 50 crunches. The last things were from my trainer. He likes to kick my behind quite a bit.

The cupcakes I made for the candle party today were great, Everyone loved them. I had part of one when they came out of the oven last night just to make sure they were cooked right. A hazelnut coffee cake with nutella for frosting. yummy!

We went and saw The Eagle with Channing Tatum. It was better then I thought it would be. I snuck in a turkey wrap to eat. I didn't have dinner since I was at the candle party so long today. I only had a bit because the wrapping was so loud in the theater that I just stop trying to eat it. More for later though :)

Last thought for the day...I love my husband. He is such a great man. He has been really helping me out with my workouts and being really supportive lately. Maybe I am just in a better mood from working out but life is really good right now in the Fat Wife household.

Hope you all have a great Sunday.

*HUGS*

My Love For C3

My eye's have opened and shockingly I am standing in front of the vending machine at work. I figure well if I'm here I guess I will get something. I stare at the contents for a while and have the internal fight of do you need this? My stomach saying get the Reese's pieces, your running today they cancel each other out. My mind says you better not if you are going out for dinner tonight. So they compromise and my eyes find the lifesavers. I put the dollar in the machine and push H1...nothing happens, I push it again...nothing happens. My sorrow! The H button is broken. The internal battle begins again this time, well you have to get Reese's pieces now you will never get your dollar back. Then out of the corner of my eye what do I see...my saving grace! C3 you are perfect! 70cals and 12g of protein! Oh C3 where have you been all my life? Hiding between the Ho Ho's and the Pop tarts? I got your number now C3, I will be back for you again. I reach down, through the door..."Hello beef jerky!"

Oh Puff n' Stuff...BYOC

I want to thank everyone who commented on my post from yesterday. It was quite the interesting day. I ended the day with chili and cupcakes. The chili is a Biggest Loser recipe I found a while ago that my husband and I just love! Very filling and only about 160cals per serving. I add a scoop of unflavored protein powder to it just to kick it up a bit, even though it already has a ton of protein in it anyway. I made the cupcakes for a friend. She is having a candle party on Saturday so I am bringing them to that. I know she will love them. (side note: She and her hubby just found out they were preggo after trying for just over a year. So excited for them)

Overall not to much going on this morning. Another busy day at work, with me stealing a few minutes to post and eat some oatmeal. My restriction is doing great! I still get hungry before I should sometimes but really only when I start drinking water to soon after I eat. I don't know how some people with good restriction can drink with there meals. I physically can't or I will get stuck. It feels like everything trys to get forced down through the opening and it hurts allot. I sit there and I slime and spit allot and be very ladylike in the process. Such a wonderful part of having the band.

I am very sore today. I am going to take it easy this afternoon for my workout. Only a little running. I was thinking to myself just how much of a difference losing 45lbs makes! It's freaking crazy! I know for a fact that I would never be able to do the stuff that I can do now if that weight was still on me. I am so thankful for my band. I love it! I am in love with it...we are getting married! Just don't tell my hubby :)

I really started noticing a difference last week while taking my Vitamin D. I wasnt as tired all the time and I actually was more productive at work. I have been so tired the last couple of days and I know it was because I stopped taking it this week. The last couple of days I have started to feel really sluggish and today very tired. So I will have to start taking it again. It really helps.


BYOC!!!!!

1.Are you a heavy or light sleeper?

I used to be a heavy sleeper but going through boot camp trashed that idea. I hate being a light sleeper it sucks!

2. If you were made into a professor for a day, what topic would you lecture on?
I'm not sure. I think I would focus somewhere in the military realm and help out all the new military wives. Teach them how to act as a wife and just the basics in making your way around base and the terminology. Just because it is such a different life.

3. What’s a skill you’ve always wanted that you don’t currently have?
I wish I could run forever! I wish I could be a in a marathon and win. I could probably some day get to the point to maybe do one but winning is a different story.

4. Have you ever been in a real cat fight?
Once in high school. A chick insulted my family and I was in a bad mood so I slammed her head into the window on the school bus. Never got in trouble for it. I don't know if you consider that a cat fight or not though.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
In blog land everyone seems to be getting back on track with diet and excersize and shedding the weight. BOOBs is a huge topic still and people are starting to find room mates for the event. So looking forward to it!
In real life things are busy with work, working out and getting ready for classes to start next month. I have the candle party this weekend and a trainers appt. Hubby is doing great too he lost 2lbs this week! So excited for him! He is also starting his first semester at the same college I will be attending. Lots of stuff going on.



That's all for now my wonderful followers! I hope you all have a great weekend! I will hopefully be on tomorrow if I get a chance. Between the trainer at 1200 and a candle party at 1. I will do my best.
*HUGS!*

One Of Those Days

Today is just one of those morning were getting out of bed was a bad idea...

Every morning I have a routine. Flat iron..on. Toilet, scale (i know, bad), wash up, get dressed, do hair, do makeup, scent, teeth and take vitamins. Then I go downstairs and let the dog out then get my lunch and breakfast and snacks ready for the day. Most of the time my gym bag is ready the night before and have it sitting at the end of the bed.
This morning I get up and I am super sore from my workout yesterday of stair stepper and circuit training. I'm sure I looked like a little old lady trying to hobble to the bathroom. So not in a bad mood, just tired and normal morning bitchiness.

During my bathroom routine our kitten likes to lay in one of the sinks or on the drawer unit that stops at about boob height and chill with his mama in the morning. This morning he laid in my sink for all of a minute then started to try and dig in the sink. Cute...until he peed in my sink!!!! Seriously!? In my sink!? This set my routine off. My cat wanted the litter changed and apparently he was not taught subtlety by our older cat. I cleaned the sink. Yelled at my husband, who doesn't normally get out of bed till an hour after me, that the cat peed in the sink. Being the wonderful husband he is, he gets up and changes the cats litter for me. I think he didn't say a word to me because, well he knows morning me very well.
But really, in the freaking sink!?!
I don't get up in a decent amount of time that if something goes different I wont be late for work. I am a horrible morning person. So I ran down stairs forgetting my socks and had to go back upstairs. Let the dog out, forgot the dog outside until I noticed he wasn't trying to trip me on the way out the door. Then I forgot my gym bag. At least I remembered my food for the day.
Then on the way to work I got cut off twice in less then 5 minutes of driving! Once I get to work I get the spot I am trying to park in stolen by one of the cars who cut me off on the way to work!! At this point I am ready to just throw in the towel and say screw this I'm not working today. Of course I just walk into work anyway. At 0615 I get into work and there are already 3 people waiting to get seen by our Doc and we have a full schedule. Just what I need to make my day. I am still feeling the effects from our families dog having to be put down yesterday too.
This day so far has not been very nice to me. I know its not a horrible day in the scheme of things, but I wish it would be better.

I am going running again tonight and am looking so forward to that. It is truly the one time of the day when I can just focus on me and making myself better. Just me and my sneakers. I guess the hubby will be there too.
I hope you all are having a better day then me today.

*Big hugs and lots of love*

P.s.
For all of you who are going to the BOOBs event I am thinking about making glass tile necklaces with the logo in them to sell as a neat way to raise money to go. If any of you would be interested in the idea let me know. here is the idea of what they would be, just picture the BOOBs logo. Pass this on so I can get a good amount of input. Thanks :)

Weight Loss Challenge

YaY for challenges! Take a look!

Off to the gym now ladies and gents. Love ya!

Chase That Twinkie!!

Today I tried my hand at running. I was pleasantly surprised how well I did. I say I ran about .7 of a mile and walked the rest of about a mile and a half. Also did a good bit of lunges and squats. I have no idea how many calories I burned but it felt good! I just want to run more and more until I can just go as long as I want to mentally and not have to stop physically. When I was at this weight before I wanted nothing to do with working out. Now I am learning to love it. I ran with my hubby today and it was nice. He was very encouraging, except of his training opinions of me. I mentioned I was training for the Warrior Dash in September. He doesn't think I can do it. I am trying to prove him wrong with all my might. I tried telling him that I don't care about winning, just finishing. I don't think he really understands were I am coming from. I just want to do this because I never could before. I want to push myself because to me it symbolises a new life for me. A chance to show myself that this is who I really am becoming.

I am also trying to get my hubby to do the Great Urban Race with me in July. It looks like a lot of fun and a great challenge. I am trying to find more stuff for trying to get us out of the house active over the summer. Plus it gets us trying new stuff. I am really going to have to do convincing to get him to that one I think since it's more of a scavenger hunt then a race. I can't wait :D

Until tomorrow my friends!

p.s.

I just talked to my dad and was given some bad news. Our dog is being put down tomorrow. He is in bad shape. He has a tumor, has no bladder control and there is blood in his urine. He is 13yo so he has had a long life and a spoiled one. Not looking forward to tomorrow :(

Fill Warrior

Well I didn't get all the fill I wanted but I got most of it. I asked for a full cc but my surgeon didn't feel comfortable being out of town for the weekend. So I said lets compromise and do 0.7cc fill. He agreed so I am at 5.2cc in my 10cc band. I could defiantly feel the difference. For dinner I made mini ground turkey covered mushrooms and a bow tie pasta. I had to chew so much my jaw felt like it was going to fall off. When I went to bed at 10:00pm I still felt satisfied though. Then this morning I got full off of 18oz of water. Fingers crossed that this does the job!! A little weirdness...before I ate when I was making dinner I did feel a tad bit nauseous. It went away pretty quickly though. I know allot of people aren't as comfortable as I am being so aggressive with the fills but I only have insurance approval though July to get them done. I know I will have to go back eventually in the future to get adjusted, but hey dive in head first right? :D So for the last couple weeks you have had to hear me bitch and complain about the scale not moving and how I am not losing any weight. How I struggled for that 1.6lb loss this week. Apparently from the 19th of January until today I have lost 12lbs! It was a huge surprise because I thought I hadn't been losing very well. My surgeon was more than pleased with my progress and said I was actually losing faster then he aimed for. I will shut my trap and take the 12lbs with dignity and stop saying "well I could be doing better". Hell I don't even remember the last time I lost 12lbs in 4 weeks, let alone felt bad about not losing more. I have my 2nd personal trainer appointment today and I am so excited to tell her about my 1.6lb lost. I am so thrilled to tell her all about the hard work I have been putting in and get her ideas on how to tweak it a bit. I am also going to see if she can incorporate into the workout training for the Warrior Dash. That is a 5K run/obstacle course that my husband and I are going to do in September. So excited! It would be great to get her input on how to train better for it. Stay tuned for more....

No Idea What To Name This Post :D

First things first, I want to say welcome to all my new followers!! I see my numbers have taken a little jump in the last day. I am looking forward to getting to know all of you :D Also I am only waiting for 1 more person to follow my blog and I will set up my giveaway! Holy cannoli batman, I am sore today! I did 45min fast paced walk on the treadmill last night at a 10 incline. Parts of my body hurt that I didn't know were even being used! My arms for one are killing me, and my abs! I can understand my arms because towards the end I will admit to hanging on for dear life so I could finish but my abs astound me. They hurt more then when I use the ab machine during circuit training. I love this overall body ache though. Such a good feeling to know that you are doing right by your body instead of trashing it all to hell. To be honest my body even feels smaller, I'm sure that's all in my head though :) It's nice today that we are busy at work too. If it was a slow day I would just be sitting in the chair getting all stiff from my sore muscles. Since I am running all over the building and up and down the halls dealing with patients I am all limber. Such a funny word....Limber :P I wanted to share with you a blog that I love, he makes me laugh on a regular basis. Jack Sh*t Getting Fit. His post today was awesome and I am putting it up in my kitchen so I have it to read whenever I get head hunger. I have my 3rd fill tomorrow. I am glad I had this long gap between my fills this time. It let me gage more of were I was with my band. I have to say that after eating a HUGE soft taco last night I defiantly need a good sized fill. I am looking forward to it. Weird right? How many people look forward to getting a huge needle in there abdomen. Also I started taking my iron again. It's been about a week and I am most certain that was the reason I was tired all the time. At least a combo of that my vitamin D and my multivitamin. I have been awesome in the mornings now. A little sleepy but no where near taking all my effort to just stay awake. I think the uping my work outs has helped too. I am so glad that has been solved. I hope you all have a wonderful day! update: wow in the time it took me to post this I hit 50 followers. I guess we will have a givaway on Friday!!! YAY!!!