YaY It's Monday Again

Good morning blogger. It's Monday again. The worst day of the week to wake up early :(

You all know about my interview on Friday...I think it went very well! I will know more today. So finger crossed. Right now I get up at 0500 every morning for work and I am working by 0615. This job I wouldn't even have to wake up till 7!!! can you believe that! I will have to push some other stuff around if I get this job, but who cares it can be done. I would be able to get up at 0600 to work out.  and not have to leave for work until 0815! How awesome is that! I wouldn't have to take much of a pay cut. Also where I work now I probably put in a good 3 hrs extra a week and don't get paid because its not allotted. I know that doesn't seem like much but that's around $50 I'm losing a week in my time. It would fantastic to get this job. I actually scheduled an appointment for 0700 for myself later in the month knowing that it might not interfere with work. Brilliant! And if I'm still here and it does then who cars. I can't stand this place.

It  was warm this weekend finally! I took the dog for a walk and the poor guy didn't make it very far. I had to pick him up for a little ways. I know he is pathetic. We had some friends over for a barbeque last night. We made fuit salad, regular salad, corn on the cob(grilled), burgers, hot dogs and the hubby had chicken. I have finally conseded to the fact that I can't eat burgers anymore. They just don't like to go through the nice way. I took 2 bites last night and had to give the rest to the hubby. He was happy about it though. I ate a hotdog with some corn and fruit instead. It's sad because he make the best burgers too.

I still do not have a working scale. The one we have you have to do this little trick to get it to work right and at 5 am I am not in the mood to mess with it. If I can't step on it and it works then its not worth my time when I can barely finction that early. I think the hubs is going to order this fancy scale that records BMI too with our rewards points. So morale of the story I don't have a weight up date yet.

Well anyway have a great Monday everyone.

*HUGS*

Short and Sweet

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My husband told me I was beuatiful last night and almost made me cry in the process. Love him!

Yesterday I ate homade veggie lasagna, a whole personal size bag of rye chips, 9 cookies, and a strawberry smothie. I feel like crap this morning. Lots of bloating from the salt.

The scale at home is broken. I think its for the best today. Lots of water consumption will be done to fix issues.

I have confessed, so that is all.

*HUGS*

My Life in Bullets

I have been absent because there is nothing going on. So lets bullet this post :)

• My life is good and boring, yet its so busy. Crazy right?
• The scale is staying the same. A favorite shirt fits around my hips a little lose. I had stopped wearing it because it didn't fit at all.
• The weather is starting to get nicer. It was in the high 50's yesterday. Hoping its nice again today, class got canceled so I want to go walking with the dog.
• I missed my hair appointment on Saturday because I forgot to transfer my appointments to my new phone. I look shaggy.
• We were planning a vacation to the Virgin Islands but because of money (gas prices inflating everything!) we are looking somewhere closer. Any suggestions?
• BOOBs, BOOBs, BOOBs!
• Work sucks, I applied for a government position. I know the shut down is making things scary but I would be almost unfirable unless I really f'd up. Plus I would be a mile closer to home :) Fingers crossed for me. Plus a ton of other benefits!
• I am thinking of changing my degree path from nursing to teaching for the fact that I don't know if I will ever be able to not work so I can go to nursing school. I really don't know yet, I am still growing up so I have time to decide.
• I have my first math exam thursday. Wish me luck!

So thats about it. I have other issues to go over but they are way to deep for today. Unitl next time my dears.

*HUGS*

Coasters, Cookies, and Pounds

About four months ago when I got my band I don't think I would have believed you if you told me I would be down 56.8lbs by the beginning on April. I would have been ok, that's a perfect world. But here I am! I am 2.8lbs away from my May 7th 60lb goal. I am so happy I made the choice to get my band. I am so happy I am changing my life! 

I made almond cinnamon sugar cookies this weekend and cinnamon apple crumble bread as well. I am sending half of the products to work with the hubs and I am taking half to my work. Over the weekend I had about four cookies, but I worked it into the days. I had nothing but a taste of the bread to make sure it came out ok. Very yummy by the way! I love to bake and cook and knowing that I have a new view of food and the world around me I can know I will be fine.

I will admit that I have not worked out in 2 weeks. Its hard to wrap my head around starting to work out again until I am down a couple more pounds. I also feel great about working out but horrible about the numbers going up on the scale. I know I know it will go down after the first week. I think I am so scarred to see that number go up that I am going to just fast walk around our neighborhood. That is about 2 miles. It will be good for the dog too. I'm justifying this all in my head so I know what your all thinking. Feel free to share your opinion.

This is going to be a the first of a few excited ramblings on six flags. We are buying season passes this year because I will finally be able to fit into the coasters again!! I am so freaking excited about that! Roller coasters have always been so fun for me! Then I couldn't fit into them for a couple years, it was embarrassing and demoralizing. I had lost about 40lbs at one part and almost fit but not quite. Now I know I will fit!!! So OMG I am thrilled for six flags this year!!!

Also I had a nice little NSV on Wednesday last week that I didn't share with you and Ronnie pointed that out. I was in my psychology class looking around and realized I was not the biggest person in there! I know that's kinda shallow to think but that realization felt awesome! I wish I could share my success with the people in my class that are heavy. I know I have a long way to go but I am starting to feel smaller.

Happy Monday everyone!

*HUGS*

BYOC and Picture Friday

Here we are on the first official day of Picture Friday. This is going to be a weekly thing. I will post a picture of myself and tell you all what I like about it. Kinda a twist on what Drazil does with loving her body pictures. To start off this new tradition I am putting up my first real comparison photo. The one on the left was taken 2 weeks before I started my pre-op diet so pretty much 350lbs. The one on the right was taken last night. (I stepped on the scale) Current weight is 298.6lbs!!! The sclae is moving down again!!!

I am wearing my new scrubs that I bought last night! The pants are 2sizes from my biggest. I thought it was only 1 size till I took a look at my old ones and the shirt is also 2 sizes smaller. I really can notice the difference in my face the most. I know its kinda covered because of the phone. Sorry. Also I love the fact that I have a waste! I'm not just a tube sausage shape anymore. Being able to buy much cuter scrubs is a major plus of the weight loss. I am not going to try and find anything I like about the person on the left. So there it is. The first one is over! Stay tuned for next week :)


Courtesy of Drazil here is your Friday BYOC! This is a fun way to get to know each other better :)

1. How do you handle criticism?
Not to good. I hate to admit it but I take it to heart and kinda obsess about it a little. It really depends on what it is. I will usually let it simmer for a few days then all of a sudden be like "Am I really  blah blah blah?" The hubby is usually the only one who sees this side. He knows how to tame that beast.


2. Who had or has had the greatest impact on your life?
I am going to have to say my hubby. He has made me want to be a better person and get the help for myself that I needed.

3. If you had a friend that spoke to you the way YOU speak to yourself – would you keep them as a friend and for how long?
Probably not I am really hard on myself. I know if I was that hard on other people I wouldn't have any friends  

4. Do you think crying is a form or weakness or a form of strength?
I believe it to be a sign of strength for the most part. If you are a winey little piece of crap who uses crying to get your way then you are probably not a strong person anyway. But when a person loses a person who need to just get it out once and a while then I am all for it. The men and women I have been around have shown me just what true strength is and crying can be involved in that.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blog land and in real life.
In blog land people are looking very sexy! everyone progress is amazing. Ronnie and I were saying how awesome peoples progress pictures are looking! I haven't been able to keep up to much with ya'll but I will try to do some catching up this weekend.

In real life classes are going great! I think I am really going to enjoy this semester. Yes Tina even with the math class :)
Sucker Punch came out today and OMG! the hubby has been talking about nothing else! I am excited to go see it today too. I think I will take some edemame for snack at the theater. I got a new bigger purse to hold everything the hubby likes me to bring.
Everything is going good overall. going to do lots of cleaning this weekend to.
I hope you all enjoy your weekend.
*HUGS*

A Fill Is In Order

Yesterday we went to Texas De Brazil and it wasn't worth it. I had a good time and the food was amazing but the overall experience wasn't worth it to me any more. I was able to eat way to much. I don't know were Phylis (my band) went for the night. Then afterword I felt like crap cause I was so overfull that I wanted to puke! I would say a fill is defiantly in order. Thankfully it was mostly protein. Carbs is what really kills me but holy crap I still cant believe I ate that much. I don't think I have consumed that much in one sitting since pre-band. I have an appointment in 1 week to get a fill. I am looking forward to it.

I am going to try my hardest not to weight myself again till next Saturday morning and see how this week goes. One I don't want to see how bad last night went and 2 I just need to give the scale a break. Stepping on it everyday isn't good for anyone.

Well it's Monday again and I have to head off to work. Hope you all have a great day!
*HUGS*

Feeling Good

you are all encouraging and wonderful on my pictures. It takes allot for me to post a picture of myself. I have pictures of me straight out of boot camp with collar bones that could poke someones eye out and still hate how they look. Self confidence has always been a major issue so I think I will make Fridays picture day and go along with what Drazil said and say things I like about what I see. It will be hard but I think worth it. 

this morning a victory! down 2lbs! 300.6. only .6lb back to were i was. I never moved my ticker because i new i would get back to that weight, but it would take time. So I am almost to the point of never seeing those blasted 300's again.

So that is all for now. I need to shower cause i look like i slept on the street last night. 

*HUGS*

Crouching Kitty, Hidden Chocolate

I finally went to the gym again yesterday! It felt so good! I burnt 786 cals on the treadmill. and I'm not sure how much I did on the row machine, but I did 500meters for a cool down. My left foot thankfully adapts to pressure by the end of the day so I could do what I wanted. I got to take my time and just go at my own pace. Again though that dread snuck up on me on the way to the gym. I also got so tired that I had to fight every bone in my body not to fall asleep while I was driving!. I even had to pump myself up sitting in the car in the parking lot to walk in the front door. It was nice to see other heavier ladies there. Even if only in the locker room  : /

After the gym I came home and was cleaning up some stuff in the kitchen. I heard this super loud crash! I turned around and somehow my 4lb cat knocked over and shattered my glass top dinning table!! How the hell does that happen! So I spent about 40 minutes cleaning that all up and have to go shopping for a new table this weekend. Overall I'm not to heartbroken about it because I get a new table but cleaning up all that glass was a nightmare.

Also yesterday my husband got a pretty nice award from his command (work) and I got to go to that. I have never had the chance to go for an award ceremony of his before in the almost 6yrs we have been together. It was really awesome! I was able to get pictures and be all proud of him. Then got thanked for coming by his commanding officer (that's always awkward for me.) He was awarded another ribbon as well during the ceremony. He was given a NAM (navy achievement medal). This brings him up to 2. He is such a good sailor! To kinda celebrate because a friend of ours that he works with got an award to we all went to red lobster. I got a cup of lobster bisque soup and a half pound of crab legs (underwhelming btw, it turned out to be maybe 1/4 cup of meat). I also had 2 biscuits and half of a chocolate lava cookie with ice cream. The cookie had a hidden giant melt of chocolate on the inside! Holy mother of god it was nirvana on a plate. I think I might need another fill. It made me glad I worked out. I'm so glad I don't eat like that all the time. I would be 350lbs again.

It was a good day though and I am looking forward to furniture shopping this weekend. So thank you kitty! (the cats name the broke the table is Mr. Monster...appropriate?)

So have I hope everyone has a great weekend and while I am arguing with my husband about which table to get I will be thinking of you all and wishing I was here.

*HUGS*



My poor broken table :(



If It Wasn't For Chris...

I would have never gone to the gym last night. Just like I haven't gone to the gym in just about a week. Chris is my personal trainer and if I wasn't paying his ass extra and I could've cancelled the same day I wouldn't have gone to the gym lst night. But I did go, and I am so glad I did. After that week off from the gym and being sick I was really working up a good amount of anxiety about going back to the gym. I told you I started running with my husband and we go to a different gym on base were we live. Every time we go to run I get so nervous about it before hand. I have even told him and I can't explain why I just do. But this whole little explanation was to tell you all I am so glad that I went last night because now I want to go again tonight. I just had to get back into it. Especially because today is one of those crap days that equals crap food. ( I am not liking my job today)

I just wanted to say that I didn't get to far around blog land today but I will try to say my 2 cents after I work out tonight. Love you guys

*HUGS*

Yee-haw

Happy Monday everybody. I had a nice weekend of recovery and monkey business. We went out to eat twice and I weighed in this morning at 300.0. So not to bad of a gain. I am going to start back at the gym today after being sick last week. I know it's not going to feel the greatest after taking such a long break from working out. Also this weekend I was noticing just how much of a difference 50lbs has made.

Also as I am looking around blog land this morning I am noticing that the spring challenge is starting and I don't have a picture to put up. I guess I will have to put mine up tonight. Time has just flown by. I didn't realise it was that time already. lol

What does 50lbs mean to me:

-sitting in a theater with my legs up, because its comfortable and i fit.

-not being scared to sit in a chair because it's to small

-being able to workout 5 days a week

-loosing 2 pant sizes.

-sitting on the edge of the bathtub with my feet up.

-more confidence

-less arguing with my husband

-more walks with the dog

-shoes fit better!

- not sweating my butt off when I have to run around at work

-I sleep better

-My husband says I snore a ton less

-I got the courage up to dye my hair again

-almost no heartburn, was taking prilosec every day

-my knees don't hurt anymore, unless I don't workout (weird right)

last but not least (feel free to think dirty)

-RIDE 'EM COWBOY! yep went there :)

Checking In :)

I want to thank all you wonderful ladies for your comments yesterday. I would never have gotten this far without your support and friendship. I love you all! I can't wait to give you all a huge hug at BOOBS this year.

This morning nothing is really going on. I am sitting at work being bad already cause I am munching on a doughnut. I will factor it into my day of calories. Damn co-workers and there generosity. : P I do just want to curl back up and go to bed. I am still fighting this URI so I am just drained. The first thought I had when the alarm went off this morning was thank god I get to sleep in tomorrow.

I have not worked out once since Saturday. I feel horrible for slacking on it, but like my husband pointed out I will get right back to working out next week. Well as soon as I start feeling better. Like previously stated I am just looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. lol

I have a funny little side story. At least I found it funny. We were laying in bed last night and cuddling, when hubby says "I can feel your ribs". I was thinking oh very cool. A noticeable sign that I have lost a good amount of weight. I didn't say anything though. He leans over and proceed to bite the end of my rib cage to prove he can feel them. "See, I can feel your ribs". Now what kind of man shows there wife they are losing weight by biting there rib cage to prove they can feel it. All I could do was laugh at him. That man sure does make me smile.

Until next time.

*HUGS*

Holy Crapoli

I was going to do a post this morning how my new goal was to reach the 50lb mark before my 3 month bandiversary and what I would do to get there. I realised this morning there was no need for it when I stepped on my scale.

That's right ladies and gents. I had another 2lb loss! This gets me to 2 milestones. This puts me at a 50.8lb loss and I am sitting pretty in the 200's!!!!! I weight less then 300lbs!!!! Can you believe it? I can't believe it. It makes me want to cry from joy!
Also just noticed this puts me at under 100lbs more to lose! Wow what a great morning!

I know I know, some of you might be saying, well you have been sick. Of course you are going to lose weight if you can't get to much food down. I have been taking in more calories in liquid then I usually do. I have been getting about 1600 - 1800 calories a day for the last 2 days. Broth, protein shakes, pudding (sugar free). for dinner on Tuesday I was actually able to get a slice of pizza in and last night I had turkey and noodles. So I haven't been starving.

Morale of the story is...I am officially under 300lbs and hell frickin ya it feels fabulous!!!

Bye bye 300 club. I will not miss you : D

Also keep your fingers crossed for the hubby. He is trying to drop below 200lbs this week.

I do still feel a little crappy. I am coughing up stuff now which is a good sign. Blowing my nose allot and using lots of hand sanitizer at work today. Lets just hope the patients don't complain.

Thank you all for the well wishes.

*HUGS*

A Day on The Couch

Still sick today. This morning I woke up and everything hurt, my head, my throat, my sinus's and my muscles. i am home for the day. I took some mucinex D and drinking lots water. The doctor yesterday said I have a URI (upper respiratory infection). I never thought a URI could take you out like this. It sucks.

This morning I woke up and went to the bathroom and saw the scale and even though I was up 2lbs yesterday stepped on the scale. To my huge surprise I was down 4.4lbs from yesterday. Putting me at a new low! 302.6!! I am so close to being under 300lbs now I can taste it. I can't wait to see 299lbs that will be a great day to celebrate.

My band is tight today again. Yesterday I tried eating boiled eggs (haven't had any issues up till now) they came back up into the toilet.  It's crazy how being sick affects my band. I am trying to stick to mushies and protein shakes today. We will see how that goes.

I am going to relax and watch I Dream of Jeannie and drink lots of water. I am so thankful for my weight loss! It's like the scale gods said hey she's not feeling well lets give something to smile about!

I hope you all have a great scale day and otherwise. :)

Blah Morning

I am sick. Sore throat and body aches. I have to wait till about 0830 to call and get an appointment to be seen. The advice line nurse that I talked to this morning said she would put in the computer that I needed to be seen today, My throat has been bothering me since Friday and I had just put it off till today. I have a hunch that it is just post nasal drip, but nothing I have been taking is doing much about it. I woke up a couple of times last night from the pain. It is starting to affect my band. This morning I figured I would try to get some left over pasta in so I wouldn't be hungry for a while. I took one bite and almost BP'd instantly. I was in the kitchen sliming into the sink for about 5mins. Not good. I made myself a quick protein shake and went about my business. It has yet to be consumed because the sliming and almost PBing didn't do my throat any favors.

Any who I am still working today so I will be traveling around blog land when I get a chance.  

The scale was not kind to me this morning. It had a 2lb gain. It makes seance though since I have been working out so much especially this weekend. Probably by the end of the week I will start seeing some more loss. I hope everyone had a great weekend

*HUGS*

My Love For C3

My eye's have opened and shockingly I am standing in front of the vending machine at work. I figure well if I'm here I guess I will get something. I stare at the contents for a while and have the internal fight of do you need this? My stomach saying get the Reese's pieces, your running today they cancel each other out. My mind says you better not if you are going out for dinner tonight. So they compromise and my eyes find the lifesavers. I put the dollar in the machine and push H1...nothing happens, I push it again...nothing happens. My sorrow! The H button is broken. The internal battle begins again this time, well you have to get Reese's pieces now you will never get your dollar back. Then out of the corner of my eye what do I see...my saving grace! C3 you are perfect! 70cals and 12g of protein! Oh C3 where have you been all my life? Hiding between the Ho Ho's and the Pop tarts? I got your number now C3, I will be back for you again. I reach down, through the door..."Hello beef jerky!"

Oh Puff n' Stuff...BYOC

I want to thank everyone who commented on my post from yesterday. It was quite the interesting day. I ended the day with chili and cupcakes. The chili is a Biggest Loser recipe I found a while ago that my husband and I just love! Very filling and only about 160cals per serving. I add a scoop of unflavored protein powder to it just to kick it up a bit, even though it already has a ton of protein in it anyway. I made the cupcakes for a friend. She is having a candle party on Saturday so I am bringing them to that. I know she will love them. (side note: She and her hubby just found out they were preggo after trying for just over a year. So excited for them)

Overall not to much going on this morning. Another busy day at work, with me stealing a few minutes to post and eat some oatmeal. My restriction is doing great! I still get hungry before I should sometimes but really only when I start drinking water to soon after I eat. I don't know how some people with good restriction can drink with there meals. I physically can't or I will get stuck. It feels like everything trys to get forced down through the opening and it hurts allot. I sit there and I slime and spit allot and be very ladylike in the process. Such a wonderful part of having the band.

I am very sore today. I am going to take it easy this afternoon for my workout. Only a little running. I was thinking to myself just how much of a difference losing 45lbs makes! It's freaking crazy! I know for a fact that I would never be able to do the stuff that I can do now if that weight was still on me. I am so thankful for my band. I love it! I am in love with it...we are getting married! Just don't tell my hubby :)

I really started noticing a difference last week while taking my Vitamin D. I wasnt as tired all the time and I actually was more productive at work. I have been so tired the last couple of days and I know it was because I stopped taking it this week. The last couple of days I have started to feel really sluggish and today very tired. So I will have to start taking it again. It really helps.


BYOC!!!!!

1.Are you a heavy or light sleeper?

I used to be a heavy sleeper but going through boot camp trashed that idea. I hate being a light sleeper it sucks!

2. If you were made into a professor for a day, what topic would you lecture on?
I'm not sure. I think I would focus somewhere in the military realm and help out all the new military wives. Teach them how to act as a wife and just the basics in making your way around base and the terminology. Just because it is such a different life.

3. What’s a skill you’ve always wanted that you don’t currently have?
I wish I could run forever! I wish I could be a in a marathon and win. I could probably some day get to the point to maybe do one but winning is a different story.

4. Have you ever been in a real cat fight?
Once in high school. A chick insulted my family and I was in a bad mood so I slammed her head into the window on the school bus. Never got in trouble for it. I don't know if you consider that a cat fight or not though.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
In blog land everyone seems to be getting back on track with diet and excersize and shedding the weight. BOOBs is a huge topic still and people are starting to find room mates for the event. So looking forward to it!
In real life things are busy with work, working out and getting ready for classes to start next month. I have the candle party this weekend and a trainers appt. Hubby is doing great too he lost 2lbs this week! So excited for him! He is also starting his first semester at the same college I will be attending. Lots of stuff going on.



That's all for now my wonderful followers! I hope you all have a great weekend! I will hopefully be on tomorrow if I get a chance. Between the trainer at 1200 and a candle party at 1. I will do my best.
*HUGS!*

One Of Those Days

Today is just one of those morning were getting out of bed was a bad idea...

Every morning I have a routine. Flat iron..on. Toilet, scale (i know, bad), wash up, get dressed, do hair, do makeup, scent, teeth and take vitamins. Then I go downstairs and let the dog out then get my lunch and breakfast and snacks ready for the day. Most of the time my gym bag is ready the night before and have it sitting at the end of the bed.
This morning I get up and I am super sore from my workout yesterday of stair stepper and circuit training. I'm sure I looked like a little old lady trying to hobble to the bathroom. So not in a bad mood, just tired and normal morning bitchiness.

During my bathroom routine our kitten likes to lay in one of the sinks or on the drawer unit that stops at about boob height and chill with his mama in the morning. This morning he laid in my sink for all of a minute then started to try and dig in the sink. Cute...until he peed in my sink!!!! Seriously!? In my sink!? This set my routine off. My cat wanted the litter changed and apparently he was not taught subtlety by our older cat. I cleaned the sink. Yelled at my husband, who doesn't normally get out of bed till an hour after me, that the cat peed in the sink. Being the wonderful husband he is, he gets up and changes the cats litter for me. I think he didn't say a word to me because, well he knows morning me very well.
But really, in the freaking sink!?!
I don't get up in a decent amount of time that if something goes different I wont be late for work. I am a horrible morning person. So I ran down stairs forgetting my socks and had to go back upstairs. Let the dog out, forgot the dog outside until I noticed he wasn't trying to trip me on the way out the door. Then I forgot my gym bag. At least I remembered my food for the day.
Then on the way to work I got cut off twice in less then 5 minutes of driving! Once I get to work I get the spot I am trying to park in stolen by one of the cars who cut me off on the way to work!! At this point I am ready to just throw in the towel and say screw this I'm not working today. Of course I just walk into work anyway. At 0615 I get into work and there are already 3 people waiting to get seen by our Doc and we have a full schedule. Just what I need to make my day. I am still feeling the effects from our families dog having to be put down yesterday too.
This day so far has not been very nice to me. I know its not a horrible day in the scheme of things, but I wish it would be better.

I am going running again tonight and am looking so forward to that. It is truly the one time of the day when I can just focus on me and making myself better. Just me and my sneakers. I guess the hubby will be there too.
I hope you all are having a better day then me today.

*Big hugs and lots of love*

P.s.
For all of you who are going to the BOOBs event I am thinking about making glass tile necklaces with the logo in them to sell as a neat way to raise money to go. If any of you would be interested in the idea let me know. here is the idea of what they would be, just picture the BOOBs logo. Pass this on so I can get a good amount of input. Thanks :)

Weight Loss Challenge

YaY for challenges! Take a look!

Off to the gym now ladies and gents. Love ya!

Chase That Twinkie!!

Today I tried my hand at running. I was pleasantly surprised how well I did. I say I ran about .7 of a mile and walked the rest of about a mile and a half. Also did a good bit of lunges and squats. I have no idea how many calories I burned but it felt good! I just want to run more and more until I can just go as long as I want to mentally and not have to stop physically. When I was at this weight before I wanted nothing to do with working out. Now I am learning to love it. I ran with my hubby today and it was nice. He was very encouraging, except of his training opinions of me. I mentioned I was training for the Warrior Dash in September. He doesn't think I can do it. I am trying to prove him wrong with all my might. I tried telling him that I don't care about winning, just finishing. I don't think he really understands were I am coming from. I just want to do this because I never could before. I want to push myself because to me it symbolises a new life for me. A chance to show myself that this is who I really am becoming.

I am also trying to get my hubby to do the Great Urban Race with me in July. It looks like a lot of fun and a great challenge. I am trying to find more stuff for trying to get us out of the house active over the summer. Plus it gets us trying new stuff. I am really going to have to do convincing to get him to that one I think since it's more of a scavenger hunt then a race. I can't wait :D

Until tomorrow my friends!

p.s.

I just talked to my dad and was given some bad news. Our dog is being put down tomorrow. He is in bad shape. He has a tumor, has no bladder control and there is blood in his urine. He is 13yo so he has had a long life and a spoiled one. Not looking forward to tomorrow :(

Fill Warrior

Well I didn't get all the fill I wanted but I got most of it. I asked for a full cc but my surgeon didn't feel comfortable being out of town for the weekend. So I said lets compromise and do 0.7cc fill. He agreed so I am at 5.2cc in my 10cc band. I could defiantly feel the difference. For dinner I made mini ground turkey covered mushrooms and a bow tie pasta. I had to chew so much my jaw felt like it was going to fall off. When I went to bed at 10:00pm I still felt satisfied though. Then this morning I got full off of 18oz of water. Fingers crossed that this does the job!! A little weirdness...before I ate when I was making dinner I did feel a tad bit nauseous. It went away pretty quickly though. I know allot of people aren't as comfortable as I am being so aggressive with the fills but I only have insurance approval though July to get them done. I know I will have to go back eventually in the future to get adjusted, but hey dive in head first right? :D So for the last couple weeks you have had to hear me bitch and complain about the scale not moving and how I am not losing any weight. How I struggled for that 1.6lb loss this week. Apparently from the 19th of January until today I have lost 12lbs! It was a huge surprise because I thought I hadn't been losing very well. My surgeon was more than pleased with my progress and said I was actually losing faster then he aimed for. I will shut my trap and take the 12lbs with dignity and stop saying "well I could be doing better". Hell I don't even remember the last time I lost 12lbs in 4 weeks, let alone felt bad about not losing more. I have my 2nd personal trainer appointment today and I am so excited to tell her about my 1.6lb lost. I am so thrilled to tell her all about the hard work I have been putting in and get her ideas on how to tweak it a bit. I am also going to see if she can incorporate into the workout training for the Warrior Dash. That is a 5K run/obstacle course that my husband and I are going to do in September. So excited! It would be great to get her input on how to train better for it. Stay tuned for more....