27 April 2012

Uncomfortable Shrinking and Acceptance

I have always loved laying on the floor to take a nap. I like to lay in front of the fireplace on a cold day, or lay down and read a book, or watch TV.

It is no longer comfortable. *sigh

My bones, are sticking out. That should be in itself an amazing thing. I can see hip bones and my hubby loves jokingly gnawing on my ribs, (I love the weirdo of mine) but they are uncomfortable.
I can no longer lay flat on my stomach on the floor or even in my bed. (we have a really firm mattress) I have to put a leg out to the side to lift up my body just a bit so I am comfortable.

A good problem to have?


I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that I will lose all my weight but it will just take time. Just because the weight loss is slow doesn't mean it isn't happening. That first year post-op is amazing! your losing weight crazy fast and your body is changing and almost everyday you are finding an NSV to celebrate. Your like a little kid with there eyes being opened to all the wonders of the world for the first time. Then you grow into that teenager who just got into their first car accident and it was slamming head first into a wall. (at least for me it felt that way)
This is truly a whole different life and not just a quick fix. I have noticed my body reshaping itself to how it was meant to be. This last 58lbs are going to reveal the real me. The first 92 has been a shrinking blob but now the sculpting begins. I am very excited. There are without a doubt going to be some things needing to get touched up. I have varicose veins that I want to look into getting taken care of, some are protruding a little and my husband has already promised me a boob job and a tummy tuck after we have kids. (so in like 6 years maybe, lol) I can't wait to see what I look like when I reach goal. I can't say when this is done because it is never done.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and love yourself in whatever stage you are in this journey. It's an amazing one!

1 comment:

  1. Bones are a wonderful thing... and I am glad to hear they're less hidden. You deserve it after all your hard work.