Non-Weight In Wednesday and A Sad Woman

I was looking at pictures and came across this picture.

I used to think that this picture was a good one and that it was cute because I was snuggling with my dog. I remember that weekend though. I was 23, we were camping with 3 other couples. I was so overweight that I needed help getting up out of the chair because I was in so much pain from my knees. I look at this picture now and see a very unhappy woman. My shoulders are slouched and I am trying to hide into myself. I want to cry for all the things that this woman went through. I was so big that I could barely get out of a chair. It's hard to believe I let myself get to that point. It's also scary that this point wasn't very long ago. This picture is a reminder of all the work I have put into get to this point and to all the work I still have to do.

On to Non-Weight In Wednesday

It has gotten much easier to avoid the scale. I still have my moment when we have a stare down but I win out every time. I don't know if I am losing but clothes are fitting differently. So if I end up not losing a single pound this month I will be slightly frustrated but I don't think I will see it as to much of a set back because I know I am gaining muscle which in the end will help more with my weight loss.

Also I stopped taking my birth control today. Yes it means what you think it means, but not for a couple of months to come yet. I am hoping that stopping it will help with my weight loss. I was taking a rather high dose pill so I am thinking that my stall in weight loss might have been assisted by this little fact. So after a couple of months have evening out after the pill we shall see what happens. :) 

It's hump day ssooo happy humping everyone!