Training Day

I promised all of you I would tell you how my session with the personal trainer went......I loved it!!! The lady I have is amazing. She is personable and willing to push me. I even told her that I had WLS and she was supportive of it. She went through some of the weight machines that she wants me to do on my own 2-3 days a week, the machines aren't her norm so she wanted me to have a good base to strength train separately. That took up most of the session, and at the end we did step-up (that's what I am calling them). You step up onto a platform that is just below knee high and bring your other knee up to your chest as far as you can. Those are killer!!! Today I am so sore. I love that sore feeling because it means that I did everything I could and then some. I got there early to do a warm up on the elliptical. Great NSV moment for me! I did 2 miles in 25mins! I know that doesn't sound like allot but I haven't been able to get 2miles in under 30mins in a long time. I am so proud of that! So other then the trainer not to much going on today. Another day at work, another dollar earned. It's only Thursday, I was really hoping it was Friday this morning when I woke up. Oh well. I wish I could work from home and set my own hours. How awesome would that be! I hope you all have a great day. I will be drifting around blog land through out the day. p.s. I just wanted to add that after my workout I felt amazing! I was all happy and relaxed! I love that feeling! I used to get like that when I would work out while I was in the navy and I am so happy that it's back!!

Ugg...Workouts

This 6 day in a row workout is kicking my behind! I accepted the challenge so its time to march my butt upstairs and get to it finally. I went upstairs about 2hrs ago to go work out and it didn't happen, then an hour ago and it didn't happen, so its going to happen now. I wonder how Drazil is doing on her end?

A New Low!!!

Well folks I saw my lowest number on the scale this morning since I have been out of the Navy...311.8. I saw it so therefore I am claiming it!!! It's mine!!! No one can tell me different!!! At least until my insecurities get the best of me tomorrow on the doctor's office scale :)This brings me to a total loss of 38.2lbs!!! I have 5 more day to hit 40lbs by February and by golly I am going to try my damnedest to get there! 311 and I have had a history before. In 2008 I had lost just about what I have lost now and then it all went to hell. That was my most successful diet to date. Now it feels so good that I am not giving up like I did before. All I have to say is watch out world this fat wife is slowly shedding her blubber! Drazil challenged all her readers to work out everyday for the last 6 days of January starting yesterday. So I got right on the elliptical when I got home from work and turned on the fast paced music. After that I almost threw up because I was trying to keep up with the beat the whole time. lol Scared the crap out of my dog running to the bathroom. I didn't do any weights last night just my 40mins of cardio. We also went to dinner last night at Chili's. I got the Fajita Trio and just ate the meat and veggies. YUMMY! Yep I ate the whole thing! Which is still a ton less then I would have eaten pre band. Of course I was really hungry and ate to fast without chewing well enough and almost PB'd. I am so scared of PBing and messing up my band because I just can't ever seem to remember to chew my food. I had this problem allot before I got banded. Both my husband and I have this mentality that we have to eat every meal as fast as we can and get on to whatever it is we are doing next. I think it has to do with the fact that we are military and for a long time both of us had to eat that way. It is a challenge to change this habit. I am sure though that after enough times of almost PBing I will learn my lesson.

Frustration!

Sorry this might get a little whinny... The scale is not moving! (in the direction I want it to). I have been on the scale every morning (begin scolding) and I finally thought I was going to drop below 31lbs. I was only .2lb away! .2!!! Then this morning I step on the scale and I am up 2lbs...not .2 away from were I want to be, but 2 whole freaking lbs more. I have started working out again. I have worked out almost every day! 30-40 of cardio and I am also doing a little for my arms, and I have added in a little yoga. I am eating how I am supposed to and the amount I am supposed to. No go though :( I know it probably has allot to do with the fact that Aunt Flow is here but it's so frustrating to go through surgery and lose the majority of my weight pre-op so far! I am seriously thinking I am going to have to cut back to only 1000cals a day again like I was doing for pre-op. It's just so annoying that I have gone through surgery and am still at a stand still! I thought that part of my life was over. I thought that having to struggle with working out and eating almost nothing was over! I don't know what to do anymore. This fill doesn't seem to be working at all and I have to wait another 2 weeks to go for another fill. I know it might be a little aggressive to get another fill already but I am just at my wits end. I will wait till next week to make any decisions, till after my visitor is gone. My whole life this has been an issue and now I thought it was going to be a little easier. It just seems harder to me because I'm getting frustrated and am stuck. I am terrified that I will gain that 31lbs backs. I'm terrified that I went through all of this to still fail.

Food is Annoying

My husband was getting ready to go play poker with the guys and I told him that even though I wanted to have a good time with the guys I didn't trust myself to be alone with the food. So I think I am going to go upstairs and get on the elliptical instead for a while and see how things go from there. This whole struggle messes with your head so much! it's annoying. I almost had my first PB last night. We were at Red Robin before going to see a movie. I had gotten the salmon burger and had it with only the lettuce, no bun or mayo. My first bite wasn't chewed quite enough. :( I know we aren't supposed to drink while we eat but I tried to get it down with some water and it almost came all back up. Talk about a panic moment, we were as far away from the bathroom as I think we could get too. Thankfully as I prepared to try and calmly walk to the bathroom and not PB in the process it started to stop hurting. So what did I do after that...took another bite. lol I guess I didn't learn anything. O well I will eventually I guess and it wont be pretty.

I also cut my hair today, I was letting grow out and I finally got sick of it. My husband likes me with short hair better anyway and it is so much easier to maintain. I went from shoulder length to what you see in the picture.

Protein Bar

I wanted to share with you all a purchase I made last week. It is a GNC protein bar. I haven't tried them yet. I plan to have one for breakfast in the morning. I have been having a protein shake for breakfast for about 1 1/2 months now and taking in about 40g of protein. I am getting so sick of them. This protein bar is 30g protein and roughly the same amount of calories (i use milk for my protein shake). This bar has 390cals and only 6g of sugar. I am very excited to show you all this. I am hoping this will keep my fuller longer in the mornings. I will let you all know how it taste in the morning :) I got a call this afternoon for my fill, it will be on Friday at 1:30pm. Very nervous about it but looking forward to it at the same time. Well I am off to do my first workout in a while, Not looking forward to it but it must be done. Later peoples :)

First Fill?.....Order Up!!!

Welcome to 2011, It's so crazy I haven't posted anything since last year! (har har har, I crack myself up ). Well I surprisingly did not gain anything over the holidays like I had expected. I am hovering between 30 - 31lbs, which is perfectly good for me. I had my second follow up with my surgeon (who I now think is a turd) I am supposed to get my first fill this week some time. It's going to be done under flouro (sp) so I have to wait to hear when the hospital has an opening. I will get back to you all when I know a specific date. Then I am starting to work out again today. I'm not going overboard or anything. We have an elliptical in the upstairs bedroom so low resistance and a slower than normal pace to work myself up to a good workout. Then in February I am going to add into that a night of yoga and a personal trainer once a week for a month to start out. So now that I am back on track with my eating I foresee 60lbs down by May 7th ( my 6yr anniversary) no problem. I am hoping to reach the 50lb mark by the beginning of March. I have my appointment with Columbia College tomorrow afternoon so I will keep you posted on that as well. I hope everyone had a great New Years celebration! Until next time *Hugs*

5 Minutes A Day Re-Start

Recently I have become a avid reader of Lynn's Weigh. The last post really stuck with me. I have lost 19lbs so far and that is awesome and yes i am going to have my surgery probably in October but when I'm still in pain most of the day and it hurts to get up and sit down I am only hurting myself. I kept putting it off thinking well once I get more weight off it will hurt less and I can workout better, but that's not the case. I sit at work most of the day, I sit at home most of the time, I sit in the car. Most of my life is sitting doing allot of nothing. On top of that I feel extra lazy because I have an elliptical sitting in the bedroom right upstairs. Lynn said that when she was obese she was afraid to see it and I know how she felt. I know I'm fat and I joke about it all the time! It's scary to admit your not perfect no matter how thin you are. I don't want to hurt any more. I am to the point of no activity were even sitting in a chair hurts. Being lazy hurts! But I don't want to be lazy anymore! My new goal is that whenever I am at home and I'm not doing anything and I think about it I am going to go upstairs and do 5 mins on the elliptical. I know it doesn't sound like much, but its a start. Going from doing nothing to doing spontaneous little workouts I hope will slowly build up my muscles to the point I don't hurt any more. I have come a long way from being in the Navy and working out 2 hours a day but I will get there again. That is my promise to myself. I don't owe my health to anyone but me.