11 January 2011

Frustration!

Sorry this might get a little whinny... The scale is not moving! (in the direction I want it to). I have been on the scale every morning (begin scolding) and I finally thought I was going to drop below 31lbs. I was only .2lb away! .2!!! Then this morning I step on the scale and I am up 2lbs...not .2 away from were I want to be, but 2 whole freaking lbs more. I have started working out again. I have worked out almost every day! 30-40 of cardio and I am also doing a little for my arms, and I have added in a little yoga. I am eating how I am supposed to and the amount I am supposed to. No go though :( I know it probably has allot to do with the fact that Aunt Flow is here but it's so frustrating to go through surgery and lose the majority of my weight pre-op so far! I am seriously thinking I am going to have to cut back to only 1000cals a day again like I was doing for pre-op. It's just so annoying that I have gone through surgery and am still at a stand still! I thought that part of my life was over. I thought that having to struggle with working out and eating almost nothing was over! I don't know what to do anymore. This fill doesn't seem to be working at all and I have to wait another 2 weeks to go for another fill. I know it might be a little aggressive to get another fill already but I am just at my wits end. I will wait till next week to make any decisions, till after my visitor is gone. My whole life this has been an issue and now I thought it was going to be a little easier. It just seems harder to me because I'm getting frustrated and am stuck. I am terrified that I will gain that 31lbs backs. I'm terrified that I went through all of this to still fail.

2 comments:

  1. I can tell how frustrated you are and I'm sorry you didn't see what you wanted on the scale. If I was a betting person, I'd put my money on TOM. Stay off the scale for a few days and you'll see that pesky two pounds dissappear in no time.

    One of the drawbacks of the band is that it does take a bit of time to get to good restriction. Until then you are pretty much dieting (and we all know how well diets work). It takes an average of 3-5 fills to get to the sweet spot. You are lucky that your surgeon is so aggressive because you'll get there quicker than many people do.

    So take a deep breath and don't let this send you off the deep end. You are doing FANTASTICALLY and you will not fail!

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  2. Ok breathe! Like Amanda said, you are still dieting right now, because the band isn't filled up enough for you to really have restriction, from what I can tell. Until you are at restriction, don't expect much weight loss! But I am so glad you are doing your exercising and eating well, keep that up and then when you have restriction it will all start to happen for you.

    Take a look at my weight loss chart at the bottom of my blog and you will see a looooooong break in weight loss right after surgery and after the post-op diet. Before I had restriction, I lost nothing, in fact I gained about 5-7 pounds if I remember right. If you can just stick with what you have already lost during this time, you are doing great!!

    We all want the weight loss to happen RIGHT NOW, but even with the band, that isn't the case. I got banded on February 22 so I am almost a year out and just barely hit 60 pounds lost, I still weight 212! That is way overweight! But in a year from now I bet I will be a lot lower. It WILL take time, but hey you got the rest of your life to start losing, so don't rush it! Just sit back and enjoy the process.

    Oh and you're definitely up 2 pounds from Aunt Flow ;)

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