31 January 2013

I feel like a pin cushion!

I finally got my unfill today!!!
It was lunch time when I was done and all I had to eat in the morning was a banana protein smoothie. So I was hungry and shaky and almost passed out while I was being poked. Not a fun experience. For lunch I got chicken and re fried beans and had no problem at all with the chicken! It's been a long time since I have been able to say that, even when I had a good fill level.

I am not quite sure what the title of the lady who tried to stick my port first but she was horrible! She wanted to numb my port area first. I told her that she didn't need to. In retrospect I should have let her do it, I had no clue it would be so difficult. She poked me about 7 times and then went to get a surgeon. He had to poke me a few times as well before he was finally able to get the port just right. The pressure from them pushing and prodding was the worst part. I could tell that this is just a general surgery place and not a specialized place like my last surgeon just from her first couple of tries.  I will have a bruise in the morning if not later tonight. We decided that 1.5cc was a good amount to take out with being to over zealous about loosening things up.

They want to see me back 4 weeks after the baby is born so I can do a barium swallow and get some labs drawn so they know where we need to go from here, since I am a new patient for them. Sounded good to me.
I will leave you with what my port area looks like after the whole thing. I have never seen it look like this. You can already see the bruising start.

29 January 2013

I feel like death :(

35 Weeks
Pre prego weight: 257lbs
Last weeks weight: 279lbs
Today's Weight: 280
total gain: 23lbs 
Craving: The ability to breath normal

I will be 35 weeks tomorrow, but I am home from work today so I figured I would post today instead. The reason I am home from work today is because I feel like I look and I look like this:
 I have been fighting this since friday. Sunday I finally called and asked what I could take to help the symptoms and told them that among the handful of things wrong was that I was having trouble breathing too. They told me to go to the ER if I continued having breathing issues. So yesterday while we were supposed to be at baby boot camp I gave in and had hubby drive me to the ER. I was given an albuteral breathing treatment and told to get lots of rest. So I am home today and like my title says...I feel like death!  Better then yesterday but still crappy.

I also have my band appointment on Thursday. I will finally be able to get some relief with my eating. I think since I have been doing a lot of thick liquids such as smoothies and soups and.....ice creams,  that I have put on more weight with this pregnancy then if I had proper restriction all the way through. I am be no means upset with my weight thus far. It gives me experience and guidance for the next pregnancy,at least a few years from now.

So this week I will only be working 2 days because of Monday I took off because I was supposed to be in that class, being sick and then my appointment on Thursday. O well, they have to get used to working without me soon any way for at least a little while.
I leave you with my 35 weeks belly shots :)
I hope your week has been a less miserable then mine and that you are all in good health.

23 January 2013

I educated my doc :)

34 Weeks
Pre prego weight: 257lbs
Last weeks weight: 279lbs
Today's Weight: unsure?
total gain: 22lbs Craving: milk and hot chocolate

As you can see I don't have a weight listed today. I am currently out of my home for the fumigating until later tonight. I didn't have access to a scale since Sunday morning but I was still at 279 that morning. I have minimized the sweets and have been feeling a lot better overall. Last nights dinner was a yummy chicken salad with fresh mushrooms and cucumbers.

I was able to get all of baby girls clothes washed this weekend before we had to vacate the house. Conclusion is that I have about 50 outfits that she will never wear. I have been given so many newborn clothes from a friend of mine that I will have to box them up before they get used. I don't think she will come out as small as everyone is saying she will be. I could be wrong but I don't think she will be small.

Like I had told you last week I had my 33 weeks OB appointment. Everything is going good. They aren't to happy with my weight but I still say I am doing ok. It didn't help that there scale weighed me in at 5lbs heavier then the weight I got that morning. I guess all the water I drink during the day makes that much of a difference. I had to educate my mid wife on my lap band. My port can be felt very clearly now and she thought it was a foot pressing really hard. So I told her what it was and answered her questions. It's always nice to spread knowledge about my band. I think she was less worried about my weight after that as well. She understood more about me and my experiences I think.
Her movements are getting so strong and painful. Apparently that is normal. So I am going to be fit for a belly band. I don't know how that will help but apparently she thinks it will.
Not a ton going on still. Just prepping for the baby's arrival and I think I will get the hospital bags ready this week. I know I still have about 6 weeks but everything I am reading says to do it early because you never know.

Well I hope you all are having a good week. For those of you that are being assaulted by the cold I am sending warm wishes your way!

16 January 2013

No Title...To tired to Think!

Pre prego weight: 257lbs
Last weeks weight: 281lbs
Today's Weight: 279lbs
total gain: just going with 22lbs
Craving: A cold glass of milk with cookies.

7 weeks! Holy crap, time is flying by! I can't wait to hold my little girl :) I hope my hormones balance back out after that. I have been so quick to get overwhelmingly angry! It's scary, I didn't even know I could have such intense anger like that. I just want to hit someone. I think the fatigue has a good amount to do with it too. Still so tired all the time. Sleep is becoming more and more evasive too. Getting up at 5:30 in the morning is getting increasingly difficult.

I am cutting back on my sweets. This last week I have gotten way out of control. My hubby even said something to me about my consumption. It is so easy to fall back into old habits. Over the weekend I made mini banana muffins. Monday I made milk chocolate and white chocolate chip cookies. Over the weekend I also bought and ate, with very little help from hubby, a whole pack of double stuffed Oreos. Last night after making a wonderfully healthy dinner we went and got frozen yogurt. So it's time to cut back.

Dinner last night was a Brussels sprout hash with an over easy egg and roasted mushrooms. O so very yummy and healthy :) Let me know if you want to hash recipe.

Not much is going on around here, it's nice! Hubby did take me out to a nice dinner on Friday. We were able to watch the sun set over the ocean from our table. So beautiful. As we get closer to B day it's nice to have all this time to spend together. I feel like we are getting closer together these last couple weeks. That's how it should be. We are going into such a life changing time it's nice going into it knowing we are so strong as a couple.

I have an OB appointment on Friday. I will let you all know how that goes.
Update on the band appointment: The soonest they can see me is the 31rst of Jan. Not that I am not used to figuring the eating thing out at this point. It took 4 hours to eat 3/4 of my mini pizza the other night. (We like to make our own at home). Frustrating!

Well I guess I should get back to work. At this point that entails me vigorously trying not to fall asleep at my desk!
Have a great week everyone! Get some good sleep for me!

11 January 2013

Is that my tooth?

32 weeks
Pre prego weight: 257lbs
Last weeks weight: 272lbs
Today's Weight: 281lbs
total gain: just going with 24lbs   :(
Craving: A cold glass of milk.

My weight is horrible. I don't know how I jump almost 10lbs in a week. All I can say is I am talking to my doctor about this at my next visit. I have been doing so well up till now. I am still being told that the weight gain I have still isn't bad for pregnancy. I feel like I am failing both myself and my little girl though. I know it doesn't make sense to feel that way, but I do. I think not having been down to goal weight when I got pregnant had a lot to do with it. I was still in that weight loss mentality and that any gain was a reason to retrace all my foodie steps. It is a mental struggle to not feel horrible about my body because of the number on the scale.

My hormones have been turning me into a crazy person. I have been getting insanely pissed off at the most mundane things. On Monday night I was literally crying and laughing at the same time all while being pissed off and frustrated. I didn't know it was possible to feel all those emotions at the same time. I literally felt like I as going crazy! Not a good feeling.

Quick little back story note: I hate popcorn!
On Sunday I got a craving for popcorn and decided why not have some. I ended up biting down on a popcorn kernel really hard. I spit it out of my mouth and I see a piece of silver! Is that my tooth? Yep that was my tooth. I broke a crown in half. My dentist wont fix it till after my pregnancy. Thankfully the tooth it came off doesn't have any nerves in it anymore. So it doesn't hurt. O the things I get to look forward to.

My Christmas tree is still up. I planned on taking it down this past weekend but that obviously didn't happen.
This weekend I plan on taking it down. I also bought a lot of food to make and vacuum seal so we have healthy microwave meals after the baby gets here so I don't feel like I have to cook all the time too. A couple of the recipes are my own wonderful high protein stand-bys and I have gathered other from various places including The world according to Eggface. I also got my supplies for making my bath bombs in. So I plan on making a few of those tonight so I can soke in the tub after a day of cooking and food saving tomorrow.

We had a labor and delivery class this week. We watched a live birth video. I have seen this type of video many times before having been in a pediatric environment for most of my medical career. Let me tell you, that s@$t is a lot more frightening when you know its going to be happening to you in a couple of weeks!

I will leave you with a picture of my belly at 32wks:
well I would have liked to leave you with a picture but the computer that I am on is not cooperating.
Have a good weekend :)

02 January 2013

Single Digits!

31 weeks
Pre prego weight: 257lbs
Last weeks weight: 268lbs
Today's Weight: 272lbs
total gain: just going with 15lbs
Craving ice cream! This spells trouble!

You might remember that I was having trouble earlier in the pregnancy with my band (it corrected mostly with going back to better water drinking habits) and what I could or couldn't eat. Now it takes me at least an hour to eat about 3/4 to 1 cup of food. Some times it takes longer depending on what I'm eating. I even am having a little difficulty with thicker soups or chunkier soups. Example: For lunch which I started at 11:45am I am eating very moist ground turkey nacho pasta. I have only been able to eat half of it so far and I am still working on it at 1:53pm. Two mornings ago I felt a little bit of a problem when I drank some water first thing after waking up. SSssssoooo I have called my doctors office and am waiting to get a call back from a nurse....to get a referral...then wait for approval....to make an appointment....to drive an hour or more on a day I have to take off from work....to see a surgeon to talk about getting an unfill if they decide not to do it on the spot (if not I have to take a whole other day off work). Jeesh, I like that my insurance covers so much but this is such a long process just to do something that (if I had the right needle) I could do myself. It's frustrating. I hope that me being pregnant and having trouble eating will speed things along a bit.

In other news only 9 weeks to go (fingers crossed) until little girl makes her appearance!

I live on base and we have been notified by our housing that on 21Jan they will be fumigating all the houses on our street. It's a thing that they do every couple of years. So we have to vacate the house with all 3 animals for 2 days and go through all the crap that it entails and have to take all of the baby's stuff with us because I don't feel comfortable with it being exposed to those chemicals even though I am going to wash it all. All I keep thinking is that I don't have time for this nonsense.

We had a very nice calm New Years eve. Watched a couple of movies and I had a glass of sparkling cider. If you have been following me for a while you might remember that I don't drink carbonated beverages any more because I learned early on that they are just one of those things that screw with my band and make my stomach hurt. But I drank it in small sips over a long amount of time and did just fine. No, that is not why I had trouble with my water. The sparkling was the same day but much later. But it was a nice night.

I hope you all had a great new years eve and day and that 2013 brings you as much joy as I am expecting from my 2013!