I don't know why I can't just be happy with how far I have come. 1 lb is great especially since I didn't workout everyday that I planned last week. I just can't be happy with it though. I was losing so easily before. Now I feel like I have to really try hard for every freaking pound! I didn't get a lap band to diet the 150lbs off! I know it's not the easy way out. It still is going to take work. It just annoys me that all the work I put in and I see so little reward.
It's so frustrating! Why can't I lose like at the beginning? I look at everyone on blogger that lost 100lbs in there first year. I want that to be me. I am trying to have that be me.
Everyone says that I am doing so good. 62 lbs is allot of weight, and I agree. but I am so hard on myself that I just can't be happy with what I have accomplished so far. This feels like so many other things in my life that have started off so great and I have failed in the end. (even though I know I haven't failed this. just today I feel so defeated)
I was so excited when I saw the 286. the scale even flickered to 285 this morning. After weighing myself 3 times it was a solid 287.
Why do I do this to myself?