Holy Crapoli

I was going to do a post this morning how my new goal was to reach the 50lb mark before my 3 month bandiversary and what I would do to get there. I realised this morning there was no need for it when I stepped on my scale.

That's right ladies and gents. I had another 2lb loss! This gets me to 2 milestones. This puts me at a 50.8lb loss and I am sitting pretty in the 200's!!!!! I weight less then 300lbs!!!! Can you believe it? I can't believe it. It makes me want to cry from joy!
Also just noticed this puts me at under 100lbs more to lose! Wow what a great morning!

I know I know, some of you might be saying, well you have been sick. Of course you are going to lose weight if you can't get to much food down. I have been taking in more calories in liquid then I usually do. I have been getting about 1600 - 1800 calories a day for the last 2 days. Broth, protein shakes, pudding (sugar free). for dinner on Tuesday I was actually able to get a slice of pizza in and last night I had turkey and noodles. So I haven't been starving.

Morale of the story is...I am officially under 300lbs and hell frickin ya it feels fabulous!!!

Bye bye 300 club. I will not miss you : D

Also keep your fingers crossed for the hubby. He is trying to drop below 200lbs this week.

I do still feel a little crappy. I am coughing up stuff now which is a good sign. Blowing my nose allot and using lots of hand sanitizer at work today. Lets just hope the patients don't complain.

Thank you all for the well wishes.

*HUGS*

My Love For C3

My eye's have opened and shockingly I am standing in front of the vending machine at work. I figure well if I'm here I guess I will get something. I stare at the contents for a while and have the internal fight of do you need this? My stomach saying get the Reese's pieces, your running today they cancel each other out. My mind says you better not if you are going out for dinner tonight. So they compromise and my eyes find the lifesavers. I put the dollar in the machine and push H1...nothing happens, I push it again...nothing happens. My sorrow! The H button is broken. The internal battle begins again this time, well you have to get Reese's pieces now you will never get your dollar back. Then out of the corner of my eye what do I see...my saving grace! C3 you are perfect! 70cals and 12g of protein! Oh C3 where have you been all my life? Hiding between the Ho Ho's and the Pop tarts? I got your number now C3, I will be back for you again. I reach down, through the door..."Hello beef jerky!"

Oh Puff n' Stuff...BYOC

I want to thank everyone who commented on my post from yesterday. It was quite the interesting day. I ended the day with chili and cupcakes. The chili is a Biggest Loser recipe I found a while ago that my husband and I just love! Very filling and only about 160cals per serving. I add a scoop of unflavored protein powder to it just to kick it up a bit, even though it already has a ton of protein in it anyway. I made the cupcakes for a friend. She is having a candle party on Saturday so I am bringing them to that. I know she will love them. (side note: She and her hubby just found out they were preggo after trying for just over a year. So excited for them)

Overall not to much going on this morning. Another busy day at work, with me stealing a few minutes to post and eat some oatmeal. My restriction is doing great! I still get hungry before I should sometimes but really only when I start drinking water to soon after I eat. I don't know how some people with good restriction can drink with there meals. I physically can't or I will get stuck. It feels like everything trys to get forced down through the opening and it hurts allot. I sit there and I slime and spit allot and be very ladylike in the process. Such a wonderful part of having the band.

I am very sore today. I am going to take it easy this afternoon for my workout. Only a little running. I was thinking to myself just how much of a difference losing 45lbs makes! It's freaking crazy! I know for a fact that I would never be able to do the stuff that I can do now if that weight was still on me. I am so thankful for my band. I love it! I am in love with it...we are getting married! Just don't tell my hubby :)

I really started noticing a difference last week while taking my Vitamin D. I wasnt as tired all the time and I actually was more productive at work. I have been so tired the last couple of days and I know it was because I stopped taking it this week. The last couple of days I have started to feel really sluggish and today very tired. So I will have to start taking it again. It really helps.


BYOC!!!!!

1.Are you a heavy or light sleeper?

I used to be a heavy sleeper but going through boot camp trashed that idea. I hate being a light sleeper it sucks!

2. If you were made into a professor for a day, what topic would you lecture on?
I'm not sure. I think I would focus somewhere in the military realm and help out all the new military wives. Teach them how to act as a wife and just the basics in making your way around base and the terminology. Just because it is such a different life.

3. What’s a skill you’ve always wanted that you don’t currently have?
I wish I could run forever! I wish I could be a in a marathon and win. I could probably some day get to the point to maybe do one but winning is a different story.

4. Have you ever been in a real cat fight?
Once in high school. A chick insulted my family and I was in a bad mood so I slammed her head into the window on the school bus. Never got in trouble for it. I don't know if you consider that a cat fight or not though.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
In blog land everyone seems to be getting back on track with diet and excersize and shedding the weight. BOOBs is a huge topic still and people are starting to find room mates for the event. So looking forward to it!
In real life things are busy with work, working out and getting ready for classes to start next month. I have the candle party this weekend and a trainers appt. Hubby is doing great too he lost 2lbs this week! So excited for him! He is also starting his first semester at the same college I will be attending. Lots of stuff going on.



That's all for now my wonderful followers! I hope you all have a great weekend! I will hopefully be on tomorrow if I get a chance. Between the trainer at 1200 and a candle party at 1. I will do my best.
*HUGS!*

Weight Loss Challenge

YaY for challenges! Take a look!

Off to the gym now ladies and gents. Love ya!

Fill Warrior

Well I didn't get all the fill I wanted but I got most of it. I asked for a full cc but my surgeon didn't feel comfortable being out of town for the weekend. So I said lets compromise and do 0.7cc fill. He agreed so I am at 5.2cc in my 10cc band. I could defiantly feel the difference. For dinner I made mini ground turkey covered mushrooms and a bow tie pasta. I had to chew so much my jaw felt like it was going to fall off. When I went to bed at 10:00pm I still felt satisfied though. Then this morning I got full off of 18oz of water. Fingers crossed that this does the job!! A little weirdness...before I ate when I was making dinner I did feel a tad bit nauseous. It went away pretty quickly though. I know allot of people aren't as comfortable as I am being so aggressive with the fills but I only have insurance approval though July to get them done. I know I will have to go back eventually in the future to get adjusted, but hey dive in head first right? :D So for the last couple weeks you have had to hear me bitch and complain about the scale not moving and how I am not losing any weight. How I struggled for that 1.6lb loss this week. Apparently from the 19th of January until today I have lost 12lbs! It was a huge surprise because I thought I hadn't been losing very well. My surgeon was more than pleased with my progress and said I was actually losing faster then he aimed for. I will shut my trap and take the 12lbs with dignity and stop saying "well I could be doing better". Hell I don't even remember the last time I lost 12lbs in 4 weeks, let alone felt bad about not losing more. I have my 2nd personal trainer appointment today and I am so excited to tell her about my 1.6lb lost. I am so thrilled to tell her all about the hard work I have been putting in and get her ideas on how to tweak it a bit. I am also going to see if she can incorporate into the workout training for the Warrior Dash. That is a 5K run/obstacle course that my husband and I are going to do in September. So excited! It would be great to get her input on how to train better for it. Stay tuned for more....

A Few Of My Favorite Things

In honor of my 100th post I am going to tell you all about some things that make using my band and losing weight that much easier.

First thing that I found was sesame stick! I can't tell you enough how much I love these things! SSSSOOOOO YUMMY! I found them one day at my local grocery store and have been munchin away at the ever since. This is my go to movie night snack. I put a cup in a baggie and bring it with me. Much better for you then even the theater popcorn. The brand that I get (sorry i don't it off the top of my head) is only 160 calories per serving! Sesame is also a good source of fiber and iron. Click on the last sentence for more healthy benefits :)

The second thing I found on my little journey that has made things so much easier is the blender bottle! I love this thing. I used to run my shake through my magic bullet but they always came out way to frothy. The extra air in my newly banded tummy was not very nice. With this I just shake it up and put it in the fridge over night for the next morning. Or I store some protein powder in the bottom for a quick bit of protein after I work out. I absolutely love this thing! I got mine through GNC. click here :)

The latest thing I found is the Bobble Bottle! With trying to get my minimum 64oz of water in each day I find it hard if you are somewhere that doesn't have the most desirable water source. This bottle has a filter right in it! It improves the taste of the water. Bonus all the bottles are made from recycled materials and are made in the good old USA. I drink 4 of these 18oz bottles full a day, which gives me 72oz a day. Each filter last for about 300 18 oz bottles full. they sell new filter caps online. Click here to take a look.

So that's all I have for now on my list. What are a couple of things that you love for your weight loss?

I posted a couple post ago that when I reach 50 follower I will do a giveaway. These items just might pop up in that giveaway. So spread the word people lets get this giveaway going!

Reset Button

I am hitting the reset button today. This morning the scale read 312.2. The only thing I have done right this week is drink my water. I got a nifty new filter bottle :)Talk about your set backs though. I will not make excuses this time, like so many times in the past. I will not push the blame onto someone else, like so many times in the past. I will not fool myself and hide from the scale, like so many times in the past. My solution: I went to my "spots" (you know those spots that you put stuff that no one else can find) and threw out my half eaten bag of resses mini cups. I will avoid eating out at all costs. NO SODA!! I will restart logging my food on my Lose It ipod app. I will reschedule with my trainer because I had to cancel due to the blizzard here. Set backs like the one I had this week are not in the plan if I want to be down 60lbs by my 6yr anniversary. I know I am only human and we all slip up from time to time, but I don't want to be that person again. I have been in that place so many time when I hit 40lbs and everything all goes to hell. In my head all I am picturing is the little devil being picked up and flicked across the room lol. Overall though I had a fun weekend though. On Friday night the hubby and I went for dinner (fried fish and fruit) and drinks (2 huge cranberry and vodka). Then bowling for about an hour. ( I ate the leftovers when we got home :( Yesterday I did good until dinner (meatloaf and parmesan potatoes with biscuits, cant forget the gravy) We had friends over and I drank a couple pineapple, 7up and vodka drinks. We were up till about 3am. Today for the hangover cure that I never get we all went to Denny's. anyone here of the Meat trio? Chicken fried steak, bacon, sausage with eggs, hash browns and an English muffin (with hot chocolate). I didn't eat it all there but I just ate the leftovers about an hour ago. Also for lunch I had a breaded and fried leftover piece of that meatloaf. There you all have it in full food glory. I am not hiding behind my computer screen and pretend that everything was peaches and cream while my weight doesn't change on the ticker. Hopefully on Saturday I can report a back to 309 weight or lower. Hope you all had a great weekend, see you all in blog land tomorrow :) Oh I almost forgot. GO PACK GO!!! Update: PACKERS WIN THE SUPERBOWL!!!!!!! AAAAAA!!!!!!!!

Phat Snow Hiccups

We are expecting a huge storm today and tomorrow. It has been said by the nation weather service that the storm is potentially life threatening. My work is shutting down the building for general services but some of the military staff are staying over night to make sure that the kids at boot camp get taken care of. The rest of the base is essential employees only. I guess we are in for a whiteout. The snow here began yesterday afternoon and there was about 2 inches on the roads this morning on the way to work and it was still snowing. Have I told you all how much I hate this state yet? Well I really hate this state, not only because of the snow but that is a huge factor right now. I will go into that at another time I guess. In all we are stocking up on essential non cook food, in case the power goes out and I already own stock in candles so we are good in that department :P I want to thank all of you for your comments on my mini goal yesterday. It really means allot to me to have you all cheer me on and be happy for me. This brings me to an issue I have read on others blogs...Why do people discount my weight loss just because I have a band. I don't have good restriction yet. I still get hungry all the time. I am only eating 1200cals a day. I still have to work out 5-6 days a week. I make healthy choices everyday. I might slip up from time to time but I go right back to plan. I am still putting my heart and soul into this. My husband who is a computer nerd tells me I have cheat codes! I know he is proud of me for putting allot of work into it but even my hubby, who has watched me struggle to get this far plays down my loss. It is so frustrating! Just because I had weight loss surgery doesn't mean my weight loss is guaranteed. Why is it that people don't get this? In the scheme of things it doesn't matter what everyone else thinks but it makes you just want to scream. Hiccups....ugg. I get them after every meal I eat that I eat to fast. So almost all of them at this point. Does anyone else have this nifty little issue? I joke that its a good thing so in case I ever try to eat food to fast to try and hide it my hubs will be able to tell. I will start hiccuping right up the stairs. lol or at dinner at a restaurant. Well weather permitting I will try and post tomorrow if we have power. For everyone else that lives in the general area good luck and hold on tight :)

Scale: A Love Story

I hit my mini goal this morning! The 40lb mark! 40.4 to be specific. I am just so thrilled!! I totally skipped 310 and went straight to 309.6!!! So from here on out I will be reaching new lows every time I step on the scale! Here is my montage to 40!!!

Also this puts me at another mini goal. My BMI is back in the 30's as well! 39.7! This is just a great morning so far! I hope everyone has as good a Monday morning as I am having!

Also this was a busy weekend. I had taxes and date night on Friday, I really recommend the movie No Strings Attached. Then on Saturday I spent all day finishing a baby blanket for Sunday and cleaning and doing chores. Then on Sunday I put a couple last touches on the baby blanket and went to a baby shower were I stuffed myself with lettuce lol. Busy weekend but a fun one. Although I feel slightly more tired than I did Friday I think. :)

I'm a Jumper BYOC

First of all I have to say that after updating myself in the blog world that my prayers go to Barb and her family. I don't know her but I know what it feels like to loose someone you care for to cancer. I hope that she knows how many people are keeping her in there thoughts. I have noticed a pattern here....my body will be "I don't like you today" and be up 3-4lbs. Then all of a sudden it will drop lower than it had been before. Granted that day is not today but hey like I said yesterday, I claimed that 311 with a vengeance!! So I am a jumper. Frustrating sometimes but kinda cool in the long run. I decided to take a page out of Drazil's book today and do a BYOC (bring your own crazy). Here we go :) 1. Do you believe in love at first sight?• YES! I was on the receiving end of such an event. My husband had seen me during a training event when we were both baby sailors of 18yrs old. He found out who knew me and tricked me into going out with him. 2 months later we got married :) We are going on 6yrs in May, and I am happier then I have ever been. 2. What’s your idea of a romantic evening?• Going out for a small dinner no where fancy, just hanging out with the man and being together. We are truly best friends so just hanging out and talking is perfect for me. 3. Who was your first crush?• I honestly don't remember. I think it was my next door neighbor who was older then me, but I'm not sure. 4. What do you believe is a stronger emotion – love or hate?• Like other people who have posted this question today I don't have a definitive standing on this. I wish I did because then I might be closer to figure this crazy world out. 5. Repeat question: Summarize your life in blog land and in real life. Well in blog land things have been somber in respect and support to Barb who I mentioned. I have had a couple people start following my blog this week and I want to say thank you so much! The more the merrier, I hope I provide you all with the kind of insight that I was able to get from my bandster elders. In real life things have been great! although work is annoying things have mellowed out a bit and are getting better over all. At home I have my wonderful man and my babies (the dog and cats). Workouts have been going good. they honestly could be better but I have the rest of my life to keep improving. I hope you all have a great weekend if I don't show up this weekend. :)

Ugg...Workouts

This 6 day in a row workout is kicking my behind! I accepted the challenge so its time to march my butt upstairs and get to it finally. I went upstairs about 2hrs ago to go work out and it didn't happen, then an hour ago and it didn't happen, so its going to happen now. I wonder how Drazil is doing on her end?

A Lot About Nothin

I want to thank you all for the wonderful comments I received yesterday. It was kinda a last minute picture since I had promised you all some progress pictures. A face shot was all I got to. The pictures I had taken over the weekend didn't turn out like I had wanted so I will try for better ones over the rest of the week for full body. I feel the rest of my body has not taken to this weight loss as full force as my face has :) There is not much going on in my life at the moment. We are just trying to take care of taxes and and save for a trip to Oregon in late May or early June to see the hubby's half of the family. Also saving of course for our wonderful Virgin Islands vacations next winter. Last night the hubs and I were able to video chat on his IPod. We talked to his sister for a while and got to say hi to his grandparents. I love technology sometimes. It lets us stay so much better connected if we choose. His mom is very close to all of the kids and we haven't seen her in about a year so I think his sister might surprise her with a video chat with us. It will be really nice for her and for the hubs. Plus our nephew (who idolises my husband) will get a chance to say hi to him too. I didn't get a chance to work out yesterday, I was so bloated it was painful most of the day. Every time I took a step my lower abdomen would yell at me to lay back down. I ended up laying in bed most of the night and chatting on facebook or playing my Sims game. I had planned to start working out everyday this week but I guess my stomach had different plans. Oh well I guess I will start today instead. I will be starting with my personal trainer next week. I'm kinda nervous to be getting my butt kicked again. Looking forward to it :) My weight has been staying at 315 or so. I have started to log my food more, like I should have been doing from the beginning. I am aiming to be about 35 more pounds down before we go to Oregon. So I will be working my butt off for that day. That side of the family has never really seen me very thin. I can't wait to show myself off!

Drunken NSV and Sentiment

I had an awesome NSV on Friday night. On Friday, during work, my husband text me and asked if I wanted to go to Red Lobster for dinner and I was all over that! I love me some crab! Before we got our food I had 3 big glass size vodka and cranberries ( I know, bad Shannon). I haven't drank that much in a long time. We were having a fun night out and I enjoyed my 3 crab legs and cheddar bay biscuit. The restaurant is right next to the mall so we decided to go to the mall to walk off our dinner and drunken state. I went into torrid to look at shirts. I have never been below a size 3 in torrid shirts. My husband just hands me a shirt while I was in the dressing room and says to try it on. It looked fabulous, I was doing my little turn in the mirror and he told me it was a size 2!!! A 2!!! I was so elated! So that was my drunken NSV for Friday. After that we went and picked up some yoga stuff that I have been needing for my work out video. On the way home I finally got the guts to tell my husband how much I love and appreciate his support in all of this. I started blubbering like an idiot and he kissed my hand and said he appreciated me to. He didn't say it but in his own way let me now that he wouldn't want it any other way. We have come a long way in the last year. We had hit a rocky patch that almost ended our marriage. I am so glad we are stubborn enough to have worked through it. I love that man so much there aren't words to truly express it. Today I went to a friends for a baby shower, a lot of people were there that I haven't seen since before my surgery. I got so many compliments, it felt awesome! Frustration has been building for a while now with my lack of restriction, but the last 2 days make me remember that I am getting to were I want to be even if I don't have good restriction yet. It will all just take time. This weight didn't get put on over night and it's definitely not going to come off over night. I have learned so much from these last couple months, from doing things on my own and from all of the blogs I follow. I wouldn't change all of this for anything in the world. I have grown as a person and a wife. I am truly happy, not because I am losing weight (a bonus) but because I am growing as a person and rediscovering who I can really be. I hope all of you have a great rest of your weekend. :)

Still NO Restriction :(

So I went and got my fill yesterday. He put in the 1cc that I wanted, which is great! I have no restriction though still. I came home after and ate a pita pizza with chicken, mushrooms and onions on it and had no problem getting it down. Admittedly I took my time and ate it in about 25mins, but I wasn't full. I mean I wasn't hungry but I would have been able to eat more if I wanted to. So at 4.5cc I feel no restriction. I am sure that I will have to keep chewing properly because food will get stuck easier but other than that it is all very disheartening. This seems like a good amount of fill with no change in anything. I know the band is on there properly because of the almost PB thing a couple of weeks ago. I am hoping that I will be one of those lucky people that wake up one morning and for some reason the band will have gotten tighter and I have good restriction. This has been on mind ever time I eat and I kept forgetting to ask you all. Before the band being full meant not just being satisfied but that you didn't want to eat anything else. I could feel that my belly was full both mentally and physically. How do you know when your full with the band? I haven't eaten enough to get to that point yet and I was wondering if it is a different feeling. I am assuming it might be and I just don't understand the feeling yet. Any input?

Possiblities

315lb is holding on as long as it can. I hit .8 then .6 now I'm at .2, I think it's funny. I am deciding to take Ronnie's advice and post pictures sooner than 50lbs. I have 1 or 2 before pics that I am going to scan tonight, I will hopefully get some good pictures in this weekend, and have the comparisons up by Monday. I am eager to see them side by side. I was thinking on it and I might start doing pics at every 20lbs too. What do you all think is a good interval for pics? I go for my second fill today after work. The last couple of days I have been really hungry and shocked that the scale has moved in a downward direction. So I am ecstatic about getting this fill today. I am going to ask for 1cc and see if the doc goes for it. I would rather have to much fill for a day or so and have to come back to get some out then inch my way up to were I need to be and be hungry and risk gaining weight back right now. Does anyone else watch the food network and the cooking channel? I watch it like it's a religion. I love to see what else is out there in the world that I can try. Well I found this show last weekend called Hungry Girl. It's a whole cooking show about low calorie cooking. These recipes have a ton of food per serving too. Her recipes look really tasty. Tons of possibilities to try out. So go check it out :) ****update**** the fill went great and I am home eating dinner. I am eating a pita pizza very very very slowly as to not have any issues :) I got my 1cc that I wanted and I go back in a month for a f/u :)

Control, Maybe?

" I feel like I don't have any control over anything in my life, but the only thing I can control is what I eat" -Jodi, Heavy What profound words. It's sad because I know how she feels. My whole life has felt controlled by either someone or something, but not me. I was fat as a child and a teen till about 17yo. I was also depressed for a good chunk of my teen years and I still fight the good fight now. I have been through years of therapy and medications, outpatient and inpatient. I wish I knew then all the stuff that I know now. I know that a good portion of my weight gain came from exactly what Jodi said, I could control what I ate... When I was 16/17yo I lost about 80lbs. I was working and dating and making choices. I was participating in plays and musicals. I was being a normal teen for a change. I love my mom, and I know you read my blog mom, this is not meant to hurt you. It is merely the truth. I was sheltered to the point were my closet friends were my parents friends or there friends kids. I felt like I had to grow up to fast. I was always on a diet, always on a medication or vitamin to calm me down or focus. The only thing that wasn't control was how much I could eat. I remember at 11yo knowing I was fat and hating myself for it. When I moved at 15yo I was able to just be a teen. I joined the Navy and I saw it as being free! I was terrified, but I was all on my own. When I got married I was on top of the world. Then he got deployed and I had no control again. I lived in fear on a daily basis. I would watch the news and hear that a corpsman had died and I would eat because that's all I could control. My next 3yo were like this on and off till I lost a my job, my culture, and my pride, all because I couldn't lose or maintain my weight. Again all I could control was what went in my mouth. So I ballooned up to 350lbs. I have finally realized that I can't control everything although I still try :) I do know that I am only a short step away from falling back into my old habits and feeling like I cant control anything. I have my friends and my family to keep me on track and I have all of you and your support. So although sometimes I feel like I can't control things some days I no longer have to go out of control to control what I eat. :)

TMI and Sore Muscles

Good morning blog land! It is a groggy tired morning on this end. Not to mention sore and slightly nauseated. I am a little nauseous because I drank my protein shake to fast this morning. I get this way if I don't spread it out over about an hour :( So drinking any water right now is out of the question because I just will feel even more blah. Work is crazy this morning too. I am taking this moment to myself to update my blog curiosities though. I am so sore this morning! We did weights on Monday night. Yesterday was my break day so today we are going to do them all over again. Not that I want to look like this computer altered woman in the picture...gross. I talked about my workout theory a while ago, it is basically that 2 days after your workout you will be more sore then the day after. Until if you don't work out for about a week it gets all better. So that is my issue this morning as well. I commented on another blog this morning that I don't like the idea of working out until I am working out. Once I get into it I actually enjoy it to an extent. TMI Alert! I have had some issues with consistent BM's. I started using benefiber in my morning protein shakes at about 4x as much is recommended. Nothing. I will build up for about 2-3 days and then get 2 good ones in a day. It's very weird. I did notice that there are only 3g of fiber for ever 2tblsp of the benefiber. Which in my opinion is a rip off. I can get more fiber out of a fiber one bar. Granted there are more calories. Any suggestions would be fantastic because this has a major effect on my weight. I have noticed a good 2-4lb difference sometimes, not to mention it gets uncomfortable. Other than that things are pretty slow around here. I have a fill appointment tomorrow evening. I am hoping I get a better restriction this time around. I am almost to 40lbs and still aiming for 60lbs by May 7th. How cool would that be, 60lbs for our 6th anniversary! I don't know how do-able it is yet but hey I'm still going to give it a try :) Happy Hump Day everyone :)

Lbs and NSV

I am pleased to say that my pesky TOM was teamed up with my scale. I stepped on the scale this morning just out of curiosity and low and behold I am at 315.8lbs!!! Putting me at 34.2lbs lost! This is not what I expected to see! My hubs was in the shower and I about scared the crap out of him when I yelled in joy. Also this morning after feeling so good about being down with my weight I tried on the pants that are the next size smaller in my drawer and they fit like a glove! I have been able to get them on for about 10lbs now but they have been uncomfortably tight, but that is not the case any longer. This was a wonderful NSV moment. So today we went to the mall and since those pants are a little holey I got a new pair of my new size and the next size smaller. such a great morning for me. I am not a huge picture taker at the moment but I will post update pictures along with my before picture when I hit the 50lb mark. Also I want to say thank you to everyone who left comments of support and encouragement, you really got me through this stupid TOM time.

Oops

I pulled a classic pre-band Shannon move last night.I was in the kitchen making dinner. I was chopping and measuring and sauteing and being all good with my food. (low cal mushroom and bacon quiche yum!) On the counter was a bag of my new favorite sesame sticks. I can have about a half a cup for under 200 cals so I love them. Well the whole time I was cooking away and being pleased with myself I ate half the bag of sesame sticks! I hadn't even realised I had done it until I was picking up and the quiche was in the oven. So needless to say my whole day of perfectly planed caloric tracking was blown. Why? Because then I had a piece of the quiche when it came out of the oven. I had to give myself a pat on the back for that one. It makes me see just how hard it is to reprogram your thinking process whether it be consciously or unconsciously. Training yourself to eat the right way is so hard! Today I am allotting for those pain in the butt sesame sticks because we are going to see a movie tonight. I cut down the calories in my morning protein shake from almost 500cals to under 300cals. lunch is about the same I am having a double helping of my low cal mushroom and bacon quiche (238cals) and I had a chobani strawberry yogurt for my morning snack attack. Btw I am so in love with chobani now! This one was the first one I have ever had and wow, love it. So this leaves me with a whooping 540cals for dinner :) which of course is going to partly be my theater snack of sesame sticks! O live and learn :)

I haven't gotten on the scale at all this week. Unlike some people who step on the scale everyday to see just how bad they are doing, when I don't like what I see I totally avoid the scale. At least now if I am having a bad scale relationship I don't eat whatever I want and avoid at the same time. So we will see how it goes. I have to weight in tomorrow unfortunately. I am in a weight loss challenge and I have to document on Saturdays. So at least once a week you will get a weight in.

Did Someone Say Vacation?

This picture is of a beach on St Thomas, Virgin Islands. Can you just picture me there? I could that's why I drew a little stick figure me with my picture face. A goal has been put into place by my wonderful husband (who am I to disagree) to go on a vacation to the Virgin Islands next feb-march time period. I drew myself in my goal weight bathing suit, pink of course! With a little martini in my hand! enjoying the warm sun and relaxing. I am going to work my butt off to be very close to goal so i can take as many pictures as possible. I stopped taking alot of pictures of myself and of me and hubby together because I hated how they turned out. I looked horrible. Not this time. I will document our first real vacation together like the camera is going obsolete. I am so excited!